by Hyp-know-fetish » January 8th, 2006, 10:30 pm
My birthday is coming up, and I've been reflecting on my past. Meditation brought up memories I'd left buried for years. One in particular made me a little sentimental.
When I was really little (3-4, I think) I had the power to influence what my dreams would be. Like, I'd think to myself, "The one with the fishes" and I'd immediately go to sleep and have a dream sequence. Next night, I'd think "The one with the bikes" and I'd immediately sleep and dream about bicycles. A few days like that, and I go back to the "one with the fishes" and it would immediately be the same exact dream as before. That, I believe, is where I discovered my transformation fetish. In those dreams, I'd transform into a fish, and swim around till I passed this invisible wall that changed me back.
This was a very cool power to have, I now realize, but I took it for granted. Now reality, troubles with life, and even the endless pursuit of knowledge has taken that power away from me. I never realized what I lost until now, all those years later. It was my own version of Lucid dreaming, now... gone. I also have lost my unnatural hunger for knowledge that I used on everything as a kid. I learned so much, so quickly. Now I have to work at it, like everyone else.
I have reached so many great heights in my life so far, not even half over. But I've lost some very special gifts. If anyone else had special talents or powers as a kid they'd like to share, please do. I'd like to know I'm not alone in this, and I really wanted to share this with somebody. Writing this post has made me sentimental.