Hi.
First up, I want to say that this site is simply amazing. I haven't looked around much yet, but just the little I've seen blows me away. I had no idea something like this existed, which is kinda ironic considering what I have to tell all of you.
I'm hear because someone I know online pointed me here after hearing what I've been doing the past year and a half. You see, I used to date this guy that had me listening to this hypnosis file, and after breaking up with him a year ago I continued to listen to it. Twice a day, pretty much every day, just the way I did when I was with him.
The file is the one about living naked, and no I dont live naked 24/7 and hate clothes, but I do feel that the file has had some affect on me after listening to it for so long.
You see, my Ex loved keeping me naked as much as possible, and I did that for him because it made him happy and to be honest I enjoyed the mild thrill. Doing the hyponsis thing just became an extension of that, although I did find it pretty funny at first that he was making me do it.
But like I said, after we split up I still found myself going back to the file, and by then I was noticing a change in my thoughts and habits regarding my own nudity. Maybe because of how he treated me, or maybe because of the file, I didn't know back then. But the past year since I last saw him has really convinced me that there is really something to this self hypnosis stuff.
So here is how I live right now.
I sleep nude of course, and have done for a very long time. But when I get up in the morning I go through my entire morning routine without dressing.
The time I do have to get dressed is just before I leave for work, and this is one of those times when I feel the file has been influencing me, because just looking at my clothes I feel a very strong reluctance to put any of it on.
I don't hate clothes, I just really wish I didn't have to wear them.
But I have to dress, and funnily enough the trigger in the file that lets you put something on when you have to, actually helps me to overcome this reluctance, but I have to say it over and over, like a sort of mantra as I dress.
The file says I can only wear a skirt when I have to get dressed, but that part doesn't work. Once I start to dress I can dress pretty much normally.
There is more though.
I spend a lot of my time alone at work, and can be undisturbed for hours at a time, which has led to my giving in to my urge to be nude more and more often as time goes by. When I know I will be okay for a couple of hours, I will strip right there in my office and work nude for a while. I feel so much better for doing it, and enjoy the thrill of sitting at my desk with nothing on.
No one at work has discovered me yet, and I am very careful about it so no one probably will. But the urge to do stuff like this is always in the back of my mind.
In fact, if I am not distracted by something else, I can hear the words from the file echoing in my head. And it's funny but when I am really focused on something, like at work, I can hear them almost as clear as when I listen to them on my Ipod.
Anyway. When I get home again off come my clothes. And sometimes I start undressing in the car before even getting home, at least what I can while still remaining decent.
When I am not at work and have to go out, that is when I dress a lot lighter. I've lost count of the number of times I have gone to the store in nothing but a big Tshirt, or gone out with friends in just a dress with nothing underneath it.
I tend toward loose clothing because I hate that binding feeling.
As far as my friends are concerned, I have only confided this to a couple of my closest, and they have been cool about and even let me stay naked when they come over. They have both asked though what would happen if I just stopped listening to the file, and to be honest I have tried.
I would go for a few days without listening, but the words would always be there in my head, and eventually without even realizing it I would grab my Ipod at the usual time and sit down to listen.
The funny thing is, I dont know if I am being really hypnotised or what. I dont feel like I am going into any sort of a trance. But I cant ignore the fact that my life has changed since I started listening to this file, and even my friends have commented on it.
It's not just the nudity, but they say I've gotten a lot more private than I used to be. I keep to myself a lot more and dont seem to be as outgoing as I was.
Im not really sure if that is true or not, but Im not unhappy at all or even regretfull. It's hard to put into words how I do feel. I'm not sure whether to thank you for making this file or not.
I do enjoy how I feel when I am naked, and yet I wonder what sort of person I would have been had my Ex not gotten me started.
And now I have something else to think about, this site.
As I said I had no idea this place existed, and the number of files you have here like the one I have simply amazes me.
A part of me is a little afraid to look through them all, because I might find another one that would appeal to me. And since I know that given time I can be influenced by a self hypnosis file, what other behaviour modification would work on me.
Anyway, I just thought you would want to know, and I'm going to go now and listen to my file again.
Claire.