MN_FriendlyGuy wrote:It's kind of addictive, isn't it?
But it feels good... a good addiction
So why stop?
Oh, it feels so good. I'm not even sure why, the suggestions in the file are sort of all over the place from you'll be humiliated to you'll love it, but for some reason I end up loving it.
I'm still going to try not to listen, though, as Stereoxchild points out you have to deal with reality. Though I have a feeling that my reluctance has more to do with the humiliation factor than with practicality, I feel kind of inadequate as it is and while I could deal with part time dressing I'm having trouble dealing with being fem/dressing full time in front of friends and family.
I wish I was the kind of person who could say "I'm gay" or "I'm a sissy" and be cool with it, but I lack the self-confidence for that. I almost -- this is kind of weird, but I almost wish I could be another person -- like there are people out there who are t girls or whatever, I accept them as like that, I think it's pretty cool that they're like that and I can imagine being one of them but not *me* being that way, if that makes sense.
I know it's weird, but it's as if there's this guy named Alien and there are certain expectations that he has to meet, or try to meet, I think that's because I was a weird kid and always under intense pressure to be more "normal," but whatever the reason it's really hard for me to let go.