by Draygone » September 4th, 2008, 10:17 pm
For a while, now, I've been taking a different approach to this file, based on an experience with the Trig Werewolf file. That is, I haven't been listening to the file. My reasoning is that the file and a lot of files here are akin to training wheels. They help you get going, but in some cases, it's possible to do the mental conditioning on your own. That's what I'm doing. I know how the EKC is supposed to work, so I act on it when using the trigger. And of course I'm taking my own advice in my previous post in this topic.
Now, I haven't gotten very far. Partially 'cause I haven't been using the trigger as often as I should, partially 'cause I'm afraid to try something bigger or else it could result in failure. But it has had some success. Among the various simple things I've tried...
- I've been using it to break an old habit. I generally try not to make the condition not to do it last until the end of the day, though I was able to successfully prevent for two days combined, recently. I still start without thinking about it, but I immediately restrain myself once I catch what I'm doing.
- I once changed my furry fursona for a week, just to see if I'd miss my real one or if the one I changed to is a better choice. It wasn't, I missed it.
- I've used it to beat procrastination. Granted, in order to beat my procrastination, I have to trigger myself to do what needs to be done in the very short moment of motivation, or else I don't bother triggering myself. But when I do manage to trigger myself to get something done, it has worked. Once recently I even added a condition that sorta stuck me in place until I managed to get progress done on one of my projects.
- I've altered my sexuality. Not to a real extreme, but I've been interested in being a girl in a while, so occasionally take the role of one online. Problem is that she's supposed to be straight, but my real-life maleness would mean I'd sometimes hold attraction towards girls even when I'm her. So I used this to condition myself to only be interested in guys when I'm her. It hasn't been completely successful, but it has helped.
While I've been doing this, I've often been putting to mind how the trigger works. On the one hand, something not specific enough could result in the command working differently than you intended. So often when I put in my commands, I keep in mind how I mean for them to work so that they'd actually work that way.
I've also found that loopholes are pretty easy to take advantage of, should I decide to. The biggest of which being simply to undo the previous command by saying so in a new command, a loophole I made sure to disable in the case of breaking that bad habit. Pretty useful, especially when I find that I didn't think out well enough one of my commands.
My hopes with this curse is that down the line, I get to use it as the "end-all, be all" hypnotic curse that it was meant to be, to do whatever I'd like within the capacity of my mind. With a bit of forethought and common sense. First example I can think of, and also perhaps the most difficult, to split my conciousness into two, having one continuing life as normal, while the other is in a perpetual daydream from the perspective of my skunk plush. :3