Make me a cocksucking faggot

[curiousguy92]

I'm looking for a tist who's willing to work with me to pervert me so that I crave a cock in my mouth. I want to feel right with a cock between my lips and take pleasure in being called "cocksucker" or "faggot" like they are my true names. PM me here for my IM screenname. Thank you!

[darkenedav]

Plenty of files for that on the site, maybe best to start there?

Get yourself comfortable before having a person re-enforce it might be a good idea :)

[jcrud]

wish also to be turned into a cock sucker
sissy jami

[curiousguy92]

Actually I have listened to some of the cocksucking files that are here on the site, though I admit that I haven't really used any of them that many times. I think though, that I'm comfortable enough with the subject matter now that reinforcement is what I need.

I have sucked a few guys off and enjoyed it, but more in the sense that it was just fun than in the sense that I was fulfilling a purpose. Does that make sense?

I want a tist who can take me and drill it deep into my brain that me being on my knees with a cock in my mouth is absolutely natural, and that when the man whose cock I'm sucking tells me what a faggot I am that I should be proud for doing what I'm supposed to do.

[darkenedav]

ah you see now that's a different kettle of fish ;)

If you've had that much exp then you need a dom to do that ;)

[curiousguy92]

Then that makes the issue finding a hypno dom in my area, or a least a dom who's persuasive. And preferably hot. :D

Maybe I'll try posting on craigslist to see if I can find a hot dom who's willing to break me in...

[darkenedav]

Couldn't hurt to try :)

[ftslave67]

Curious, why don't you change your handle to something more descriptive, like "dedicatedcocksucker" or some such. If you take that name, you will begin to feel it a little more each time you see it.

[curiousguy92]

Thats a good idea Ftslave. How do I change it though? I went to the "Your Info" section of my profile and it wouldn't let me change it. :?

[jcrud]

dam now i want a new name
sissy jami

[curiousguy92]

I found a hot dom! He's willing to gently (at first) train me to be a complete cocksucker and I think after a session or two of His training I'll feel right at home on my knees. :)

I'm supposed to meet up with Sir next weekend, so I'll keep you all posted on my progress.

[darkenedav]

Good luck in your endeavours!

[curiousguy92]

Well, I'm still waiting for a reply on whether we'll be meeting up on Saturday night, but if I don't get one I think I'm just going to post another ad on craigslist.

I've been listening to Jekket's Worship Cock since I started this thread and I can't believe how much more I want a cock in my mouth. I've only been listening to it consciously, never actually in trance, but it makes me so hard to hear him tell me what a submissive cockworshipper I'll be while imagining myself on my knees slobbering away. :)

I think I'm well on my way to becoming a devoted cocksucker. Now I just need to actually meet up with a dom to make me that much more submissive to cock...

[darkenedav]

lol sounds to me more like your gonna wind up in a club desperate for any cock to suck on ;)

Not necessarily a bad thing I'd guess in your situation :P

[curiousguy92]

lol i probably won't go that far just because the club scene really isn't my thing. If it was I'd probably spend the entire night there with a cock in my mouth. :D

I'm more into the private setting for sexual stuff though. Maybe the next step after I become a full-fledged cocksucker is to become more outgoing so I can hunt for cock in more public settings. :wink:

[darkenedav]

ah so you enjoy the hunger as much as the salvation ;)

[curiousguy92]

yeah i think thats a good way of saying it. I love the idea of actually having a cock in my mouth, but it makes me amost as horny when I realize I'm thinking about how much I want a cock in my mouth. :D

[darkenedav]

Lol without giving it much thought I bet even the word cock gets your eager mouth wet ;)

[curiousguy92]

Mmmmmmmm. Yes it does. :wink:

[darkenedav]

so still on the mp3s then or simply the suggestion playing in your mind?

You know what they say, 'The devil makes work for idle hands' :P

[curiousguy92]

Definitely still on the mp3s. I love Jekkets voice and the way he tells me how good it'll feel to take a cock in my mouth. Haven't had the time in my schedule to act on it since I started this thread, but your right. I spend most of my free time thinking about cock. :D

I love thinking about cock! I'm such a faggot it's so great!

[darkenedav]

That's a thought. Have you any toys to practice on?

[ftslave67]

or a banana? lol

Seriously, though, I wouldn't recommend public sex. Be safe. There's plenty of guys out there that would be willing to oblige you in your desires. Maybe get out & meet some guys on a "friendship-first" basis--get to know them. Then maybe you can find a more long-term or even permanent master.

[curiousguy92]

Nope, no toys. :( Livng with my parents part of the time while I'm going to school isn't the best environment for having sex toys around. And I don't like bananas. Ironic, right?

Ftslave, your right. I don't really want to be super promiscuous and just spend hours sucking off guys I've never really met. I would rather have a more regular dom top to keep me in my place. I don't know that I really want a permanent master though. In regular life I'd like to maintain some semblance of control. I just want to be at his mercy sexually.

I heard back from Sir by the way. He had a friend (non-sexual) coming into town and wanted to know the schedule on that before he told me to come over. The plan as of right now is to find another time to meet up and give me some training. Spring break is coming up in a few weeks, so that should be good for that. :)

[darkenedav]

Well that sounds good :D

Also sounds like you don't want to be a sub simply a bottom :P

[curiousguy92]

It's not necessarily that I don't want to be submissive, sexually at least. I just don't want to be owned if that makes sense to have one without the other...

[darkenedav]

hmmm I think you just need your dom to spend some time with you :D

lol

{fails at over-thinking things ;)

[jcrud]

would love help being turned into a sub cum craving cocksucker
sissy jami