Ryan83 wrote:Well, the yo-yoing continues. I'm even thinking about scheduling a session or two with Mind Mistress to have her just make me completely gay and ok with it. And effeminate. REALLY effeminate. ;)
It sounds like a great idea when I'm horny, not so much when I'm not. Oy.
LOL, I know what you mean about horny vs. non-horny.
But I think you may be on to something with your Mind Mistress idea. I gave myself a suggestion a few days ago to be like a guy I saw on the cover of a comic book once, this guy is one of those flaming guys who not only don't care about being out they love it, but without the flaming part. It worked better than I had anticipated or could have imagined! In fact, I sort of lost interest in Forced Bi, because I couldn't really see any reason not to be gay. (I'm still listening, though, it worked for four days then Forced Gay took over again, I'll have to see what happens.)
So much of this is just how you think about yourself, rather than anything objective.
In re flaming and fem, well, I think I'd love to be flaming. I always hated guys who were like that but I think that was just reaction formation, I realized after I gave myself that suggestion that I'd love to be entirely like that guy. But you do have the social crap to deal with, just try getting a job if you're seriously fem, you can but your job options are going to be seriously limited. Also, you're going to have a harder time finding partners, straight acting is more popular than fem.
Whereas if you just have Mind Mistress make you loooove being gay, it will only have a positive impact on your life, it won't even prevent you from being bi if that's what you want. Or love being fem, but not have to do it, just make it something you can turn on when you want, sort of a fetish or paraphelia rather than a full-time thing that could mess up your day job.