it's been a long time since i was last scared out of this forum , and with the most recent topic still stands for why , but see the thing is , for pretty much all my life i've been fascinated by my dreams , but not until about half a decade ago did i really start to take that interest seriously and see just how well of what i could remember from last night's dream and how much of it from trying how hard and such
typically i can remember anywhere from 5-25% of a dream , course that number is more of a guess but how do you know about something you can't remember? but you always know there was a lot more to your dream than what you can remember , and as for how well , usually pretty explicit , but again that's only a very small portion of the dream i can remember with the same kind of depth as to say i did that consciously
which brings me to the recent event and the point of this
RECENT EVENT (as in last night from this post)
see last night i played heavy rain for the first time with a friend , more than half way through from that play through last night , and my head has been pretty rampant with scenarios from the game to now the next morning , while that doesn't mean much on itself of course as i was falling asleep last night i was wondering what crazy ass shit i would dream about , most of my interesting dreams seem to happen after a late night of gaming or computering
so then came that uncanny moment where you separate from reality without noticing it , which is actually something i seem to have a fear for , and the dreaming commenced
then the morning came , i had quickly came back to conscious based actions again and seemed to be in a pretty good mood from the dream , no worries so i thought myself to grab my drink i keep at my bed as i was very thirsty , took a drink got comfortable again , and since it was only about 5 seconds before this i had my dream sequence going everything in that sub world that i knew was there i thought i should try and look at my dream for a bit....only....where's my dream? i just had it , i was just thinking about it 10 seconds ago , wth did i just dream about last night?
i had forgotten , in that very instant where my conscious mind came back into play that very explicit and interested dream i was having was being suppressed and forgotten
i try desperately to jog my memory and get some kind of recollection going , place , event , conversation subject , if i could just get an idea from any one of those i know i could remember a great deal about my dream , cause you know they are made in cause and effect form same way as reality is while they may still not follow realities rule completely , so if i could just remember 1 very small part in the dream i could remember the cause of that part and the effect afterwords
but shit i couldn't remember a thing! the entire thing just felt like a huge brown dirty blur , and what's worse i started to unwillingly think about other things cause i still wasn't 100% yet , and guess what i was thinking about , just about every scene i played through heavy rain last night , those thoughts were piling up on me and my dream memory kept slipping further away
after a couple minutes i had kinda lost hope that i would ever remember this dream even though i really wanted to cause i know it was interesting i just couldn't remember why.....
still trying to think to myself sutely , something that i know that i might be able to think about which would bring back the memory of the dream through relativity , i think i herd from here on how that works roughly , so daily thoughts ideas things i was thinking about , then - while i can't remember why i did - the thought of fish came through my mind (well i did have some fish on my sandwich that night) , fish , fish , water , yes! im remembering something! (epic flash back lol)
and then i remembered the scene in the dream where we drove up to a kind of dock surrounded by some shallow water inhabited by lost of fish for the point of viewing them in the water from above
and then i remembered much more from the dream since now i had the feeling of how this dream was being emulated in mind , but still not as much as i would have liked to remember.....
THE POINT
so the point of this post is i want to know more , i want to be able to remember more , i however don't want what this site has to offer with it's lucid dream crap where you can supposedly control it with your conscious mind , i want to keep my dreams wild unpredictable and interesting
but of course as of right now all i have on me is my own personal experience , that's most likely not going to be enough , but i want to be able to bridge the gap between understanding my conscious mind to my unconscious mind , so maybe something to get from it would be to understand more about myself as they are all reflectional , but as i said it's just something that has deeply interested me for quite some time.....
so , any ideas from anybody out there? or is this some kind of wishful thinking that is more related to how someone once told me that to "bridge the gap" between conscious and subconscious mind you'd have to split your brain in 2 , or something like that is what i herd?...........