by robindf1 » January 13th, 2012, 6:31 pm
I've never had troubles staying hard, to say the least. I'm almost always partially erect, and I can get myself hard by trying to 'flex' my dick once, then waitibg fora few seconds for the blood to move. I jerk off twice a day, and I never have any problems getting off.
You can imagine my surprise, then, that when I went to jerk off last night, I was having troubles staying hard, and even my favorite picture wasn't doing much for me, try as I desperately might to jerk off to it. I freely admit myself a skeptic, even though I frequent the site for fetish purposes, as no files I have previously tried, even the so-.called powerful curse files, have ever worked for me.
At least, I thought not. I have this foggy...cloud in my brain that I toyed with attributing to reduce intelligence/bimbofication files. But I didn't KNOW. And as I frequent here for fetish purposes, I was constsntly reminded of it.
So I decided that I HAD to know, once and for all, if this works. And what better way than a physical change? I'm not exactly well-endowed, and having a small dick is a fetish of mine, so I figured there wasn't much harm to be done in trying this file.
After a few nights of looping, my only result was that I FELT smaller. Feeling disappointed that my hypothesis was confirmed, when I was reading the comments yesterday that this file also makes you limp, I wasn't that worried.
Still, I pressed on, giving it another three days to show some results to make it an even six days. I had sone problems last night, as i said in this and my previous post, so I quickly became concerned. But I gave it another loop that night... just in case it was just me. I decided to check the next day to see what happened after that. If it kept up, I could just stop.
Today was hell. I couldnt get it up without continuously flexing for about thirty seconds, and even then, if I left it alone for more than ten seconds, I'd fall limp. Physical stimulation fared a little better, barely, in getting it up, but less in keeping it up unless I kelt touching it. And this was done constantly all day, with less lasting results each tine.
I don't know what to do. Could I give this file up? This curiosity and strange feeling (not pleasureable, just...weird) in my nipples begs me to press on. After all, I am a sub, and this limp thing could be a transition stage to a better feeling in my breasts.
But my fears and doubts plague me. What if it isn't a stage and I only have some effects? My dick FEELS smaller, to the point I question if girth wasnt lost instead of length, but no length was lost. My nipples feel weird, but what if it stops there? What if it does go through, but I miss my dick? Or I cant orgasm? Worst of all, does it matter if I don't listen anymore? With my attempts at getting hard being progressively less successful, and the sensations in my breast only appearing an hour ago, as well as the superfast time taken to start to effect me in addition to the speedy progression of this, can me not listening stop this at all?
And I still feel driven (not by the file, mind you) to continue.
Needless to say, I'm conflicted. I feel like I could be at an event horizon, that after one night with some limpness, and one day mostly limp, tomortow I might not be abled to at all. Of course, knowing my luck, that would also be when the other effects kick in.
Can it be stopped now? Should I stop it? ...do I want to stop it?