by OxyFemboi » March 10th, 2014, 5:18 pm
[quote]What happened to being a jock?[/quote]
Slyfox, apparently being a jock went by the boards after I listened a few times. Apparently being a jock is incompatible with my idea of femininity.
Well, that's not quite accurate. Ever since I listened to TrainTotalJock1 by mistake -- it was between two files on dreams I wanted to listen to -- in 2/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i3, I have since been fascinated -- obsessed? -- with becoming a jock. However ... I had a BIG problem. Mom had Alzheimer's.
Mom's Alzheimer's progressed to the point where she needed a caretaker 24/7. The medications weren't working. Dad died in 1995, so there was only me to take care of her. [My brother lived 3,/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i miles away and wanted nothing to do with the family.] She also developed a fear of going out of the house, so I couldn't leave the house. Once, she told me to leave and "enjoy" myself" -- I had books to return to the library -- and I allowed myself to become convinced. Ten minutes after I left, Mom called the police to report that I was missing. That eventually got sorted out ... but I didn't leave the house again till Mom admitted herself to a nursing home.
Being on call 24/7 meant that I couldn't listen to the files. I could see that I needed to take care of both my finances (and my house) and Mom's bills, medical problems, and such. I couldn't do that, write checks, and remember what Rxs she was allergic to while I was too dumb to spell my name,. So ... I had to break the "dumbness" conditioning.
Mom eventually put herself into a nursing home and I got to clean and de-clutter both houses. Mom's family were pack rats and Granddad built Mom's house in 1918. Three generations of clutter ... it took a year.
Mom died. I suspect my brother came to the funeral in 2/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i1/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i just to make certain that she was dead.
I needed a new place (three floors with four bedrooms, a full basement, and a two bedroom apartment where the attic used to be was a bit too much room. I didn't go into some rooms for months.
I moved into a smaller one-bedroom apartment. I started listening to jock files again. I hoped that I could pick up where I was before. I couldn't. Nothing had any effect on me.
Apparently when I broke the "dumbness" conditioning in the TTJ files, I also broke the jock portion of the conditioning as well. Nothing has worked since.
So I was messing around on the computer and read about ViVe's "Dumbing Down" series. I checked out his website, found the files, and started listening. Then I noticed the "Feminine Conditioning" file and listened while I was in a "what the hell" mood. I can't be super-masculine [I never was that masculine as a kid], so maybe being super-fem would work.
[quote]Hope you're not angry that my file cost you your engagement..... sorry.... :/ [/quote]
Vive, I'm not sorry. I just glad I found out before either of our states made two guys getting married legal. I was in a relationship once where the other dude was repulsed by anything as "kinky" as tying me up ... besides all the other strange stuff that hypnosis has introduced me to.
I consider hypnosis to be the human mind's "install" program for fetishes and behavior.
You might be interested that in my sex dreams lately, I have a vagina.
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OxyFemboi on March 19th, 2014, 1:13 am, edited 2 times in total.
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