by Hyp-know-fetish » September 29th, 2005, 4:28 pm
Well, I am mostly done with what could have been a normal day at college. As you may have guessed, it certainly wasn't. But, I had a few things to learn as a first-time hypnotist.
You see, I gave myself what can be summarized as three things. First, not to masturbate as much. I don't want to get into the curses where you can't do it at all, just to curb myself. The second was to pay special attention in my classes. The third was to be extra horny throughout the day when I see/think about my female classmates. (Can't -- er -- don't WANT to -- help the fact that I am straight.) Simple tests to see if I am doing this correctly.
Well, the same night, I started thinking about my classmates. I reinforced the horniness about 6 times, but never truly reinforced the not masturbating thing. My instructions clashed, and which won? The one I reinforced. So I didn't even last the night on that one. But to ease the guilt, I hypnotized myself again and switched the suggestion to where I could reach climax but not go over. Then I released myself from that one, and went to the stars. That's the only way to describe it.
Today, I paid very close attention during lectures, because I reinforced that one in detail. But there were too many cute girls in the class. Another clash, and the hornines was just a bit stronger, so I would lose focus on the instructor for small peroids of time.
I have no question this works. I just need to learn what every hypnotist did, which is to go into greater detail. I also thought about hypnosis in general during the day. I came to believe the following, correct me if I am wrong:
1. I don't think I can hypnotize myself and make myself forget about what happened during hypnosis. For one, I come out feeling fuzzy anyway, and for another, even if the 'hypnotized' me does not remember, the 'hypnotist' me will. Since they are both me, I remember.
2. I don't think I can bring about physical changes in my own body. If I can, great, especially because I have no evidence here. It just seems impossible.
I put myself under hypnosis before typing this so I wouldn't get embarrased talking about this. And it seems that I can disobey, but why bother? I'm not hurting myself by doing it, in fact I am helping myself.
Sorry for the long post, I am sure all newbies get this emotional after their first time. I'm gonna try out some more .mp3's.
EDIT - Oh, and when I say that I tweaked SG's induction, I used her voice and just changed what she said. Works like a dream... :)
EDIT 2 - Just tries SG's Induction again. I did go under, but only very lightly. I think I actually did go into trance the first time, just it was light enough that I was aware, just slightly, of the world around me. Nothing like the tales you hear, where the subject is basically a rag-doll. I still have the shivers I get when I know I am vulnerable to hypnosis. I could do anything. I think I will.