JohnDave wrote:Hiya guys
I started a 60 day challenge in October, and posting daily updates. The reason I've stopped posting daily updates is that it got to 60 days and I still liked women :'-( and I don't want to disappoint you guys
I'm still attracted to boobs, and I do like cock too, I guess it's 45%-55% now...
...I've been thinking of a different strategy :-) Perhaps if I continue with CFG, but 'gay it up' in my life as well, like, surround myself with ?stereotypically? gay things that the vibes would have a second route to my subconscious.
My end goal is to truly fly the flag, love women only as friends, and find men attractive. I was thinking easy steps may be to buy magazines, and listen to certain music... Do you have any other ideas?
x
My experience and that of some others was that attraction to women was the *last* thing to go. I lost my ability to have sex with them long before I stopped being attracted and sometimes even that would come back, although it wouldn't last more than a day.
Anyway, the longer I'm gay the more indifferent I become to women and the more anxious the thought of sex with them makes me, at this point I react to it with much the same discomfort that I felt towards sex with men before CFG. Men and women kissing or making love in a movie now make me uncomfortable just the way seeing gay guys getting it on used to.
Anyway while I was feeling gay after two months of CFG the changes continued to happen over a much longer period of time and also with actual experience. Eventually I got to the point where the thought that I was ever not gay seemed almost inconceivable because it had become my identity, both socially and sexually. I don't know that I'll ever be 100%, in that I'll still sometimes be turned on briefly by a glimpse of a woman out of the corner of my eye, but I don't think that anybody is -- I mean, I felt occasional attraction to men even in the days when gayness grossed me out and I don't think I'm unusual in that. But you'll definitely reach the point at which you are indifferent and sometimes grossed out by the idea of a relationship with women, if I look at a picture of naked guy with a naked girl at this point it's almost as if she's part of the furniture, I just have no interest in her and think of myself doing all sorts of things with the guy. :-)