by MasterJack » June 22nd, 2015, 1:20 am
OK, I listened to ladies 6 last night, and my arousal for women is definitely coming back.
Today I started with sissy porn, got aroused, but wasn't that interested in it. So I decided to watch some real girls. Now I don't have much straight porn on my computer (I like to download all my porn for better quality, no streaming), and the straight porn I do have, is just normal vanilla, which is fine. But while at the moment I can watch normal amateur sissy porn and get highly aroused by it, for straight porn I need a bit more spice added until the hypno turns me completely.
So what I like is the fast paced nature of sissy hypno files, compilation of lots of porno scenes skipping one to the next to the beat of music. So I started to watch the sissy hypnos I had, specifically because most of them have real women in them.
And I tell you, the women giving blowjobs, getting cummed on the face, being fucked, their feminine beauty, I was drawn to it, and slightly aroused. But more drawn than aroused at the moment.
It felt like the beauty of women being sexy was at another level. Like I've been living on horniness and lust alone when watching porn (even when I started off with straight porn). Now there's this other level of sexiness to it all.
Like I guess the numbness of porn addiction is lifting. I'm finding I'm getting really into it, I imagine I'm the man getting my dick sucked by her or fucking her in the porno. I'm into the sexiness rather than just the sex. It's another feeling than just horny. Ones getting your dick up (being horny), and this can happen to any fetish your currently into. While the other part is sexiness, it feels much better than horniess, it's got excitement to it.
I guess it could be the confidence suggestions of the file too. Because all I can think about is fucking lots of hot slutty girls. Like before I'd settle for a nice innocent girl, probably because I was under confident in myself and in the sex department (because I knew they were hot, I just didn't feel it). But now I feel the sexiness, I feel a drive to fuck women. I guess I also feel more dominant.
It's all really hard to explain and I just hope it continues.
Because while porn of any kind (straight, shemale, sissy) has been great for the last 15 years of my life. There's just been one level to it (being horny). But this sexiness feels like another level, it feels more involved, more enjoyable on an emotional level, and less of a horny haze.
In fact I think the best way to describe it is using my current situation. Which is, sissy porn arouses me more (I get very hard for it, but find it a bit boring). While straight porn is more interesting because of the women in it (but arouses me less). So I'm more sexually aroused by sissy porn, but more emotionally intrigued and connected to the porn with women in it.
But anyway, I hope it continues.
If anything, my next file after this is going to be increasing this feeling of sexiness and arousal to new heights. Like every women you see, is like your seeing her for the first time in all her beauty and sexiness.
No longer distributing my files.