Well, success?
I have made files for myself for years. Folks can see in my other threads what I want so I won't elaborate overly here.
The thing boils down to pain, torture, fear if I resist or disobey orders that fit into the structure of my files (force feeding and filth eating commands) and intense pleasure, ecstacy even and releif from pain when I obey-with harder eating commands providing deeper pleasure.
However, in reality, none of my files can force more than mild pleasant compulsion and semi automatic obedience (occasionally). No torture or consequence for disobedience. Not a problem, maybe its impossible.
However last night, I drifted to sleep and had adrenaline spikes as I heard voices in my head discuss genuine obedience and consequences, vulnerability and what will happen to me. My memory isn't perfect of the content, the feelings however are fairly solid.
Is this a sign of some beginning success even though my compulsions are not stronger today?