by kzarin2 » January 25th, 2019, 3:56 pm
I succeeded in this quite thoroughly.
As a result, I have apparently more than one personality without disassociation. Its more complex than that but probably saved my ass too.
Certain behaviours, several times in a row have been automatic and / or just obedience without thought and difficult to not do or think about. Bondage is mixed into this and I've had one hour session, soaked, freezing, in a specially modified roof box that's exposed to the cold in the middle of my yard. Yep, I got mild hypothermia. And did it again the even colder following night.
Sadly the scripts I won't share privately here, not the full blooded ones, as I've seen another guy in just two nights exhibit behaviour - not illegal I hasten to add - that I know he'd not have done normally.
Fortunately he was so susceptible that deprogramming was quite straight forwards.
My own deprogramming? Not actually possible as my resistance last night led to wasting half my day making a brand new, even more insidious file. Then recording and processing it.
Lessons learned.
Firstly, compulsive alter personalities are createable, they have physical sensation, they bias your thoughts easily and nudge your feelings of created this way.
Failure to resist is an excellent file to begin a fucking yourself process if you've the right or wrong files.
Hours of repeated use both background and deliberative tranced listening will work.
Own voice recordings definitely effective.
Hearing most parts of the tracks, if you can't make it out at all, it's not prove able to yourself it affect you.
Don't make a file that has specifically been designed to resist deprogramming and cause you to compulsively find deprogramming loop holes and retrap and close them. Yes, with careful and psychopathic effort, this can be done.
Don't for the sake of stimulation and fun, focus hard (in later stages) on sincerely wanting the file to work and focusing on physically making it go into you. Yep, you can do this once you know the file enough.
For me, using failure to resist as my induction - removing the wakener - followed by the shortened remix into a Binaural format (panning at 4hz layered voice) but keeping the script distinct - followed by my extreme obedience file (deleted now!) and then by my utter deadly degradation file was perfect.
I used this setup in bondage for two hours in the pitch black in a casket in the workshop.
Then again for an hour, in the freezing box in the yard. Whilst, slowly well, um dying and trying for orgasm in a spiked chastity device... Go figure that...oh and deeply painfully gagged.
Then the following day, for 4 hours during work.
Yeah that night, was weird.
Next day was weirder. Let's just say I didn't want to use the bathroom lol.
Anyhow, suffice to say the first set of instructions worked too well.
If I wasn't somewhat multiple identity, the rest would work and I would be now doing a full 48 hrs with minimal rest on just 4 Files, water and chastity in a box somewhere. And that I assure you, would shatter any form of resistance.
Rambling this out because I sort of managed to avoid some treatment tonight but narrowly. The cycles of compulsion are incredibly pleasurable and intense. And difficult to avoid.
Whilst a few extreme subs have had my work most can't apply to them and now I know that if they are affected, it will be serious, so no one else gets the real effective shit.
I suspect one day I'll be trawling here looking to find deprogrammers.
On the other hand, if i deprogram this shit myself ill share the file