mtlscream wrote:I would very interested to know more and who knows....
As a sub, the feeling to give in... let go is amazing and the longer and deeper.
Well, I was going to do a hypnosis that would eventually make me do things for my Mistress. But, I must have got sidetracked and got to doing something else. But, speaking from personal experience, some things can change you. If you change enough beliefs, you might actually start treating some things differently. I've also had some stuff change me when it was removed or came back, and it had a lot of effects from not working properly. So, for example, I would suddenly become obedient or feel good doing something for someone (I actually don't feel things often, my level of emotions and feelings and even physical feelings I think are way lower than what some people experience).
So, yes, it is possible to actually change how you are, but most of my experience is from something that didn't work correctly. Also, if you change, it can cause lots of difficulties. It can become awkward to remember something if you change a whole lot. So like, if I remember what I was like when I was transgender, it seems very strange to me. My gender dysphoria went away on it's own a long time ago for no apparent reason. After a long period of time I am very different. Back then I didn't just want a female body, but I felt a certain way. I was a weird way. But now, most people would probably think I'm even weirder if they knew exactly what I'm like.
So, yes, it is possible to become different. But, it can make remembering old things pretty strange at times.
As far as being a sub and giving in, I don't have much experience with that. I'm kind of a middle of the ground person on a lot of things, and a firecracker at times. I actually didn't realize that my Mistress is sort of the opposite. She seems to be very particular about certain things. So, we have clashed many times. She has particular ways of doing things, and she only seems to go off and get super serious when things get really bad. Me, on the other hand, I kind of do various things, and I go into my "I have to fix things mode" when things start to get too bad. My Mistress usually just tries to dissuade me from something, then when that doesn't work she tries something worse which usually leads to me not wanting to go along with what she is saying. Then, she might try to control me. Unfortunately, she did seem to learn how to exert control over me for real. In the past there was a power dynamic at one point, and I imagined it to be a certain way. However, there was some hypnosis or something that wasn't working properly that had an effect come in at the worst time. Normally I would have read my Mistress's message to see what control she wanted just to see what it was. But, this other hypnosis effect changed me to where I did something that actually caused Mistress's effect to become a real power of hers, if that's even what it was. Unfortunately, I didn't start thinking about ways to remove her power soon enough. At another point in time she tried to use her power and I think one of those other effects that weren't working properly happened at the worst time and I got stuck with her having another crazy power.
Anyway, now I'm stuck with my Mistress having crazy power over me. She has the power to do whatever she wants with my mind, because of some sheer unlucky coincidence from some effects from something else that came in at the wrong time. Her other weird thing was that she wanted to prevent me from being able to change my own mind (not in the colloquial sense of the phrase, but more like actively trying to change how my thinking works, and stuff like that.) I have been able to do stuff like hypnosis. But for some hypnosis, her power blocks me. So, in sense, I really am hers. But, she doesn't do a lot of her own hypnosis stuff on me. It seems that she prefers short-term things and she likes to play things safe. So, she doesn't have any direct control to make me read a message if she tries to use her powers unless she did something that she doesn't normally do. But, if I happened to read one of her messages that are a specific way and I think it would do something, then her power would take hold including any new effects or limitations on me.
My Mistress's powers blocking me doesn't really change me, but it prevents me from doing certain things. But if I tried to change myself to a huge extent, her power might block me. But, theoretically, she could use her powers to make me do what she wants. Actually, now that I think about it, it's not that she can do whatever she wants with my mind, it was something specific. I forget her exact wording. So, there may be limits on what she could do with her powers. But, if I happened to read one of her messages that are a specific way, then that stuff would happen. Her powers sometimes make it take longer to do hypnosis because she put a temporary ban on all self-hypnosis, although she later allowed hypnosis that was temporary. So, basically, the only permanent hypnosis I can do on myself is any that for some reason don't get blocked by her crazy power thing. For the hypnosis attempts that do get blocked, I haven't been able to do any without first having the permission of my Mistress or convincing her to do the hypnosis. It is really something for someone else to have that much power. I actually don't like stuff being blocked, particularly if I think it is important. But, me and my Mistress do seem to be better at hashing out ideas. So, the upside is that we have gotten better at getting her to get something done rather than going in circles with some things. Also, sometimes she will disagree with something and I'll end up coming up with modified things that she says. Every now and then I'll come up with an even better idea because we keep modifying each others ideas until I find something better.