by diaperbobby » November 29th, 2020, 1:50 pm
Thought I would post another update on my journey with this file. As I said earlier, I want to succeed in this change. And I am noticing some further minor changes in my body (which I will explain shortly).
I've been using this file regularly for a month now. I took the written script and made some minor changes to the effects from moving to a pre-pubescent body that I want to achieve using the file; for example, I deleted the references to female changes since I am male. I am using my re-write strictly for my own personal use and will not make it public. I am still only reading the script 2-3 times a day, but I am thinking about recording it privately--on a personal device not connected to the internet--so I can play the tape as often as I wish. I think it might be even more effective if I fall asleep to the file and let it loop for a while during the night, or maybe even all night...
As someone else said, the transformation to puberty was not a quick, smooth process. No, it takes at least a couple of years, if not longer, and is never smooth. I know that was what happened to me entering into puberty. And so I am sure that going backwards through puberty is going to be a rough, uneven journey that will have its share of successes and disappointments, until the process is complete. A month in, this is my kind of journey so far.
Physically, I note that my voice is having some changes in pitch and timbre--at times. My voice has not cracked yet (like it would do in puberty), but I'm not to that point of the process yet. But I do notice that my voice is a bit higher and that I have to concentrate to keep my tone at the lower level it was when I started. It's not yet a major change, but it is there. I had a high voice as a boy and finally had a moderately low voice as a young man--never a baritone or base voice. I like to sing (privately) and I can now get about 4 notes higher than a month ago. That's good progress, and I'm looking forward to a higher voice.
Facial/body hair is another success. I have had a good cover of face and body hair that was thick, even though graying. My hair is now about half as thick as before; it is thinner, less coarse, and less noticeable. I used to need to shave every day and now I don't "have" to shave until well into the second day. I have shaved my genital area fairly regularly over the years, but in the last 2 weeks, re-growth has slowed by half! Pubic hair is also thin and much softer than before.
My other large physical changes are to my penis and balls. As the file promised, my penis and balls have begun to shrink and be less noticeable. My penis is maybe 1/4 to 1/2 inch shorter in length and 1/4 inch less in diameter; I measured this today. My balls have shrunk by 20-25%. My penis was always short, difficult to keep pointed down in my briefs, no matter how much I would try to train it to stay pointed down. It would usually point out or just slightly up. It was uncomfortable to keep it pointed down, usually resulting in an erection which was painful. Now, I can get my little penis to point down without discomfort or painful erection, and it stays that way much of the time. My penis is more limp than I have experienced during adulthood, and I remember my penis being more limp as I am experiencing now when I was a boy before puberty. I don't get an erection as quickly or strongly as before I started the file and it is more difficult for me to get aroused enough to masturbate. I can still masturbate if I get into the right mood, but my erection is not as firm. I remember discovering masturbation before I reached puberty and really liked it, and I am feeling more that way now. I still think about sex, but it's not as intense as before. I feel like my testosterone level is dropping a little, but i don't see any way to measure that except by noticing what is happening to me.
I'm not saying by any means that I have achieved success yet, but I believe the inevitable changes the file promises to bring about have indeed started. And I am glad! I see why the file demands and promises changes in my body for at least 6 months before I can even think about asking to stop those changes. It will definitely take at least that long to really be changed. I won't ask to stop the changes; I want to keep going and see the transformation completed. I will keep using the file and keep working at the changes I am and want to experience.
I'll probably wait until around Christmas to update again.
Thanks for letting me ramble on.