by ndsubkc88 » April 11th, 2021, 3:52 pm
I got gakked-out on Tina for the first time in 2 years and purchased the Alter: Inner Demon.
Tina brings out this uncontrollable urge to feminize, and while I consider myself a bottom (I've had trans girlfriends), I've never gotten to the point of doing anything with a guy. Like, the gay stuff in the file doesn't really speak to me unless I'm in femme mode, and "white trash" just brings up images of trailer park girls with loose morals who lie about being on birth control.
Anyway, I had a 12-hour drive yesterday and I got REALLY high smoking before I left, then changed into girl clothes and started the drive (at night). I smoked and listened to hypno (IQ reduction, feminization, and Inner Demon) on loop the entire 17 hours I ended up being on the road. I think I listened to Inner Demon about 10 times, and the results were interesting.
I didn't do anything out of character, but I was having a lot of new ideas on how to push the envelope. Like, Tina helps suppressing inhibitions and getting into a hyper-focused state, but self-preservation is important. When I normally drive around en femme, it's night and I don't take any unnecessary risks. This time, most of the driving was during daylight and I went through some major cities that had a lot of street lights on the interstate that illuminated the entire inside of my car. The only time I switched back into male mode was to get gas, and I'd just throw on my male clothes over the dress I was wearing (I didn't have any makeup or jewelry with me this trip, so dress and pantyhose were all I wore.
For some reason, I decided to stop for gas at truck stops. When I finished filling up, I'd move to a parking space, take off my male clothes, push back the sunroof cover so people could see in, and circled the lot past all of the trucks. When I was on the road, I couldn't stop touching myself, so I hiked up my left leg on the door and just rubbed. I couldn't bring myself to open up the sunroof cover while I did that, but I don't think I'll have a choice next time, as I kept fantasizing about a trucker I passed seeing me, then me following him back to a parking lot and jumping in the cab. Then, when he was finished with me, taking care of anyone he had mentioned this to over the CB.
I have a month before I can touch Tina or do anything kinky, and another 12-hour road trip. This is good because you need tolerance breaks. I had a break for 2 years, and I smoked myself to the point of almost drooling. The bimbo/IQ reduction hypnos probably added to it, as it was extremely difficult to put together a coherent thought during that trip, let alone a complex one, unless it involved pleasure. Hell, I've had to go back and correct like 40 spelling mistakes in this post alone.
I don't know if it's actually a "demon," or if I'm just at that point, but I'm having more extreme ideas about pushing the envelope. I'm already planning to see if I can set up a PnP with some other people who dress at a city half-way through my route and just seeing where the night takes us.
If anything interesting comes about from that trip, I'll be sure to post in here. I don't know what the demon voice is supposed to sound like. So far, all of these ideas seem to be my own.