Hello everyone. I'm brand new to the site and extremely intrigued by some of the success stories I have read so far.
I've always identified as a straight dominant male but have had some trouble fulfilling this desire due to a lack of confidence and poor self-esteem. I am lucky to have many positive traits that are difficult or impossible to acquire; such as formidable intelligence, ideal male height, and an impressive member. However, my lack of social skills, rather severe procrastination (I have mild ADD), and poor eating and exercise habits have always held me back in life, hampered my self image as a dominant, and caused considerable shame. My great shame and my great hope are that much of what is wrong with me can be improved; while the aspects of myself that I cannot change are relatively favorable.
I've noticed several self-help files on this site that I hope to use as catalysts for improving my life, including files for reducing procrastination, improving health habits, enhancing masculinity, and encouraging dominance and confidence. I used to be quite skeptical of hypnosis, but I have recently felt its power and have read about amazing changes, including seemingly impossible physical changes, in the success stories section.
I am unsure of the best way to proceed in terms of enhancing masculinity (mentally and physically) and heterosexuality. In the past three days, I've been watching quite a few sissification, feminization, and cock worship hypnotic/conditioning videos on other sites. I appear to be exceptionally susceptible to hypnosis and had an amazing, eye-opening experience on one of the videos, but that's a story for another thread. While it's been very nice and therapeutic to get in touch with my long-neglected and hitherto undiscovered feminine, homosexual, and submissive sides; I feel ready to pursue the masculine, heterosexual, dominant lifestyle that I have always desired.
Questions
1) Is it better to utilize one of the deprogramming files on this site before proceeding to the files to increase masculinity and heterosexuality; or is it better to skip the deprogramming?
On the one hand, I feel that a clean slate might be more effective and less confusing in the long run; on the other, I am concerned that the deprogramming files may make me more difficult to hypnotize or condition.
2) If I do use a deprogramming file, should I use it once, or as many times as needed?
3) I will also ask this question on the threads or comments on the specific files I am considering, but has anyone experienced negative side effects with some of the muscle growth, masculinity, or dominance files? I believe that hypnosis can actually alter hormone production (three days ago I would have laughed at this notion) and am a bit concerned that I will get steroid-like side effects on certain files due to increased testosterone. Also, I am wondering how my brain might react to potential cognitive dissonance as a result of a dominance or confidence file telling my subconscious things that are not yet true of my life.
Thank you very much to anyone who read and responds to this veritable novel. I'd promise that my future posts will be shorter, but I don't want to risk being a liar. :wink: