Bambi needs a Master/ Mistress or both

[willgho3]

This may end up being a bit long winded but it is a familiar story to many that i have read.
I was a completely hetero alpha male a couple years ago that had submitted to Mistresses over the years then i came across the hypno videos (sissy, suck cock etc...)
I loved masturbating to them but i knew they werent hypnotizing me. Then about two years ago i came across the B?mbi Sl?ep files. I quickly fell down the rabbit hole.
I shaved my beard and went to a Pro Domme a few times for sessions in feminization where she would apply makeup, dress me etc...
I realized that the files indeed took and effect on me and decided only to use the hypno vids on pornhub etc.
Of course over time i came back and spent some time, maybe a week or so. I ended up taking Estrogen cream for about 6 weeks. After a few weeks I lost the ability to get hard enough to penetrate, i was stroking a soft cock for 3 hours before i could even cum and when i did it was not much ejaculate. My nipples were constantly sore and from what i read (and i read alot) it meant the breasts were starting to grow. As much as i was loving this i also got scared of what was happening and forced myself to quit before changes noticeable to others occurred. I lost some size to my penis which was just over 6 inches when i started.
After a period of time i stayed away from the files but this was always in the back of my head and i found a Mistress who helped get my on Estrogen again (along with a T blocker). I sucked my first cocks as well as letting a man jerk off all over my ass and then leaving the cum on me while i pulled up my panties.
Similar effects, again got scared and quit.
That was a few months ago, this week I have jumped back in and am committing to continuing listening. I have went from a Alpha Male with a 6 inch cock to who knows where Id fit in with a barely 4 inch clitty.
I am hoping to find someone or a couple to help me along with the process and possibly to own me. I am in Kitchener Ontario if anyone is closeby and my email is willgho24@gmail.com