Today I said good bye to someone I've thought of as Master for some time now. It was January years ago when I dedicated myself to Him and we hadn't even met yet. Today I am again attempting to say goodbye to him, hopefully for the last time. Why? We still have not met yet and for my own sanity, I can't wait any longer. The roller coaster of promises, hopes, dreams, wishes has reached the end. I simply can't do this to myself any longer. No amount of caring, want, desire, offerings are enough to make the meeting happen. The desire simply isn't as strong as it should be to make it happen. So, why post this here? To hopefully make a difference. If you are playing with someone and never intending to meet, then let them know and let them go. If you truly desire to meet them, then move heaven and earth to make it happen and don't just fall into a litany of convenient excuses why it isn't happening or hasn't happened. You could lose someone very special and potentially important to you. Unless of course, you already have people in place who are already very important and special to you. Then I suppose it won't matter much, except to the one saying good bye. Should he read this, what would I say to him? Submission is a gift so they say. In a season of gift giving, what does it say when the person doesn't claim a gift given and offered to him for 4+ years? I wish with all my heart things had evolved differently. The excuses and patience just ran out.