Okay so I felt I go on and introduce what my plans are for February (which I started Sunday morning so got a head start on a short month) I'd summarize what has happened so far and give you a little more information about myself (whoever is reading this).

For the month of January I really feel it helped a ton. I truly believe I'd never been in trance before this month and I hope I have been but my certainty is not 100% but pretty high. Overall I'm quite pleased and I feel I'm ready to get on to the actual bulk, if you will trying out real files.

I know 1 week is hardly enough time to get the real effects of a file but I feel in one weeks time, for most files, I should feel somethings or notice a change or something so I'll let that determine my progress. I'm going to try to group things together and really focus on maybe a certain fetish, or file series or something each month just so I'm not bouncing off the wall day after day.

I'm going to continue choosing a file to really listen to for that week and then I'll decide if I want to keep it around to reinforce or just toss it. If it gets to become too much or too little I'll adjust accordingly when the time comes.

Now let me introduce myself.

I'm a 20 year old male college student in a high populous college living in a dorm. I have a room-mate that I do not wish to be involved or know about this stuff so that's that. In terms of turn ons and fetishes I've always had a fetish for girls in diapers and getting diapered myself and adult baby stuff (mental regression) but have no attraction to very young people or guys in any way...I've had people try to get me to go gay and nothing kills my "buzz" faster.

I'm also interested in sissification/feminization and basic slave/master sexual stuff is good with me (within the extremes that is). I'm usually a sub like 95% of the time sometimes I'll get a cavalier mood and want to be a dom but that doesn't last but a night or less. Furry stuff CAN turn me on but it's really hit or miss and if I can I'll most likely avoid it in the long run...just not my cup of tea.

I'll give some history of my hypnosis experiences. Not to be too gross but my first time REALLY masturbating was actually to hypnosis stories on...http://dev.hypnoticwishes.com/adult/gallery/index.php (that was a hard page to find since it's kind of old). And thus started me into hypnosis stuff.

I'll spare the life story of discovering every aspect of what I currently find sexual but I'd tried diaper hypnosis stuff and transformation stuff a lot when I discovered the site and it was good for a good wank or too but nothing lasted and that went on...I don't know from the time I was 14-15 until now (had an old account I logged in on which I know is wrong so I remade a new account when I was of age fora fresh start).

This site was just something I dabbled with and was nothing more than porn to me until sometime last year.

I started trying stuff a little more seriously with no real results but I wasn't very committed either and I used EmailSlave for a lot my erotic stuff although I'll admit now I was never actually "under" so I do feel bad for lying to people in that regard but what can you do. Then this semester I was just trying stuff out and was triyng Safe Bladder Bowel loss by EMG (actually I copied the script first to get my premium stuff back) but it seemed really powerful, I have no idea if it was the file or just the idea of the file but while listening to it over and over again to make a script I ended up peeing my non diapered self at my desk which was very weird because I did not intend it at all.

I was really excited about the file and began listening to it almost obsessively and I was constantly diapered (this is also the first time I bought diapers online instead of using depends since they didn't hold much) and found out I peed the bed twice (without waking up) and one day as I stood up from the computer I just messed my diaper completely unintentionally and that scared me that the file did that and it was a huge mess and I stopped listening out of fear.

So that's my history, I never felt I went into trance but in that case I think I subconsciously wanted it enough for it to happen.

So here I am now.

I feel this post is really long and probably boring to most so I'll cut it off here and introduce I think the real stuff and what I'm doing this week.