So last night I met someone new. Mistress Squirrel. She has posed many thoughts on my mind. There is this lifestyle that fascinates me to no end but I'm battling on whether to pursue it. Part of me is screaming yes take it go run with it do it! The other part is telling me to walk away. That I have two kids that will never understand this. They are both young and live with their mom. They are not biologically mine but might as well be. I'm so torn! Mistress gave me for hypno files to listen to and I plan on being a good boy/girl and listening. There is just so much I am wrestling with that I am not sure which way to go. Mistress told me to take my time and decide but i'm so indecisive. I would need a physical presence here when I start. I'm very touch triggered. Maybe it's because I know that I am also a computer geek and how easily things can seem sincere or misread through text. Mistress however was very nice and gentle with me. Helping me to figure out what I want. The only thing I've decided so far is that I like Mistress. That's it for now. More to come I'm sure. Now what to do about this rabbit hole..... D43m0n/Lacy Anne