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I never thought it would work

by turbogator

I never thought it would work. I saw it as a kind of kinky joke to play on my self and as a test of my self-control. Let me tell you I was wrong. I picked the one thing that I thought no hypnotism could ever do to me even if I really did become hypnotized. Train Bladder Incontinence. I knew for to work at all I had to really try to achieve a trance. So I listened and concentrated and really obeyed the commands. I relaxed I concentrated. I listened intently and I was surprised that I did actually feel like I was in a trance. I couldn’t move. It felt like a dream when you cant move your limbs. I couldn’t stop the ideas being feed to me from the file form running through my mind and most of all I found that I was driven to keep listening to the tape over and over 3 or 4 times a day. Understand that I am not one of those adult baby types and I didn’t really want to be incontinent, I just want to see if it would work. I felt that if it did feel like it was working I could just cut it off and regain control and that would be that. But as I said, I was wrong. Its been at least two moths now. I still listen several times a day. I tried the deprogram one but my mind rejected it and I cant bring myself to listen to it or to stop listening to train bladder incontinence. I am now almost completely incontinent. For a wile at first when the urges came on I could fight them and sometimes win, though I’d often lose and when I did it wasn’t just a dribble. Either I’d win control or if I lost, then my bladder would empty completely. I had to begin wearing adult diapers to save myself embarrassment in public. Over the weeks, I began to lose more often than win these battles with the urges. Now, I don’t even feel them coming on, I just suddenly realize that I am emptying my bladder regardless of the situation I am in and though its terribly embarrassing one of the effects of the file is that whenever it happens I get a rush good feelings surge through me. I don’t know what I’m going to but for now I don’t see any way out of this predicament I have trapped my self in.


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