Another IRC trance today. This time, I think, I can know for sure that I wasn't just playing along with the suggestions, hoping that it would work. Today, I found myself intensely aroused by images which wouldn't have had much effect before. I found that not only was I turned on, I could see the beauty I had never noticed before. Obeying orders I wouldn't normally do... I could fake that, convince myself it was real out of sheer optimism and desparation. But seeing the world (or one part of it, anyway) in a completely different way? To me, that says "REAL" Also, I had a fairly funky idea for a new file. My subconscious likes the idea of being able to try it out on a certain person, but I'm sure it could be fun with anyone. I'd like to try it out now... not sure if I'm allowed, but it could be fun. Next time someone on IRC asks me, I think I'll try it out.