When I'm listening to the bondage file I feel the need to lock on a CB-3000 - a chastity device. I also feel the need to sleep in bondage. The last several weeks I would even change my bondage in the morng from an easy hands-in-front to hands-behind. I just got back from vacation. I did't wear my chastity device nor did I fee the need to be in bondage. I did have some cuffs with me but I did not fee the need to use them. On the way back I had a growing need for bondage. My wife and I made love last night and I wore locking cuffs for this. I do this half the time and always spend the rest of the night bound. Nothing remarkable here. Today I found the need to lock on the CB3000 was back. In fact, I felt that I needed to use the medium Points of Intrigue (POI). The POI are short spikes that fit inside the CB3000. There are three sizes. Originally I did't use them but after a few months I started using the shortest ones. These don't actualy hurt but they are a bit uncomfortable when I am erect. When I'm not then they help hold the CB3000 in place and prevent friction burns so there are trade-offs. The medium points are a different matter. When I am erect they do hurt. I'm not sure how painfle they will be when I get a morning erection. It may be beyond my limits. At the least, it's going to wake me up. I'm not sure why I feel the need to use the medium points. It may be to punish myself for not being bound for the last week and a half. Does this have anythng to do with the bonage file I've been listening to? I don't know. It's been some time since I listened to it and the memory-loss file I've been using with it makes it harder to remember when I did use it. I know that there it tells me that I don't have feel guilty about not being bound when it is not possible but I don't remember much else about the file. I do know that I will be cuffing myself again tonight. There's no question about that. My current need for bondage s so strong that I almost came downstairs naked and cuffed this morning. My wife wouldn't have liked that which is about the only thing that stopped me.