Meditations in a Pilloryby tyd_upI've been locking myself in a pillory most nights. I use an ice timer. The last few nights the ice melted pretty fast and I felt guilty about it. Tonight I made sure to use a good-sized ice cube. I was in it long enough for my hands to fall asleep. When I'm lock in the pillory I have all the lights out so I am in pitch blackness. Tonight I was standing in the pillory wonderig why I was doing this. I don't really enjoy it. I've made sure that I can't get any stimulation. The reason of course is that I am compelled to.
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