willingsub's Recent Entries- slacking up (85 kg) - 2006-10-05
- 83,5 kg - 2006-10-02
- Need to listen more (83,8 kg) - 2006-10-01
- 83,8 kg - 2006-10-01
- 83,2 kg - 2006-10-01
- Weight for today (83,7 kg) - 2006-10-01
- 84,5 kg - 2006-10-01
- restless (85,4 kg) - 2006-10-01
- snacks? ew. (84,6 kg) - 2006-10-01
- Dazing cocktail (84,4 kg) - 2006-10-01
- September 22 (85,2 kg) - 2006-10-01
- success and submission - 2006-09-30
- early assessment subliminal music - 2006-09-29
- Subliminal exercise music - 2006-09-28
- bus ride - 2006-09-27
- Falling deeper - 2006-09-26
- Playing with EMG's fire - 2006-09-26
- The program starts - 2006-09-22
- Files to obsess about - 2006-09-22
- Weightloss program - 2006-09-22
Need to listen more (83,8 kg)by willingsubI am changing the way I record progress again. Instead of using seperate logs to record weight, I just put it in the title of logs. That way it's easier to see my progress the moment one accesses my journal, instead of having to open all the individual logs. I gained a little weight since yesterday. If I am rational, that is really nothing to worry about, it is natural for a person's weight to vary a little from day to day. And considering I had a big four-course dinner party yesterday, it would even be rational to say a weight gain of only 0,6 kg is a success, not a failure. So far the rational part. Of course I'm programming myself to be less than rational, even obsessed. This small weight gain, that could be seen as just a natural variation, is bugging me. Big time. I am clearly not doing enough. Also I haven't found the time to listen to the files for a few days. I do listen to the subliminal music, and that does seem to work, but still it somehow feels inadequate. I hope to have some time alone tomorrow, so I can subject myself to an extra long session.
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