At least, I hope so.

I've been fairly frustrated recently at my own inability to go under, or at least what seems as such; as I've mentioned before, I'm either completely awake, fully aware of the file, or fully asleep only to wake up an hour later, the file long since over.

As the title suggests, I think I might have had some success on this one. I decided to go ahead and listen to some files this afternoon that I hadn't tried before, the only reason being that they weren't available the last time I downloaded anything from the site. These were mostly induction aids, but also included my personal-interest file, TrigBodySlave.

During the first file, Cardigan's Deep Trance, I was fully awake; I tried very hard, and my body was a lot heavier than usual (I'm able to willfully put at least my body into that kind of state), but my mind was constantly there. I was somewhat upset, but continued anyway.

The next file was fairly messy and staticy for some reason; I skipped it roughly 30 seconds in.

The file after that I believe was VisualizeHelp. While I had downloaded it with full intention to listen to it, at the time it didn't feel like the file would help; I wasn't really having too much difficulty visualizing at the moment, and none of the other files required such. I skipped it.

It was the next file that I feel had some success. It was another of Cardigan's files; unfortunately, I do not know the title of it. When it downloaded roughly two days ago, it did so as a series of numbers as the file name; I could not find it again just now when I looked. When the file started up, it went on about how it would speak directly to the subconscious and that the conscious would either not hear it at all or would forget it by the end of the file.

I was skeptical. I didn't really remember downloading the file (my memory's not that great), but figured I'd give it a shot. Some time into it - I don't know how long - I shook myself back into "wakefulness". I use that term loosely, as I was awake the whole time and knew it, but wasn't at the same time. Normally, when that happens on a file, I've gotten distracted by my own thoughts and forgotten to pay attention; this was vastly different. I continued to listen, again shaking myself into reality several times within that time span, but each time just falling under again.

There was no wake-up at the end of the file. I woke up at the end of the file afterwards - TrigBodySlave.

This gives me new hope. I don't know how I'm going to progress, but I think I'm going to try trimming TrigBodySlave down to a body and a wake-up, removing the induction so as to not confuse myself, and just place the two files one after the other.