I considered making a thread for this on the forum but I think this way will be more personal :)

I intend my journal to be a record of my experiences with various files that I've listened to and will listen to in the future. So; the first file I will go into detail of its success is 'CurseCum' which makes the listener helplessly addicted to their own cum. I've always had a suppressed desire to drink my own cum but my inhibitions had always got in my way. I found this site last year and have been listening to the Induction/Deepening/etc files since then to get used to being in trance.

The first file I started listening to which is supposed to achieve some sort of affect on the listener was actually the 'FurryTransformation' file, but after months of no success, my mind (and my mouse) wondered back to the site and out of sheer curiosity decided to try out the 'CurseCum' file. The idea of the 'curse' along with my desire to try my own cum made it seem even more intriguing to me.

The first time I listened (a few weeks back now), I started listening to the file on my mp3 player in the same manner I had done for all the induction files before. Just as I’m going to bed I would put in my earphones and start listening. Up until this file I had had lots of practice with going into trance but this file was different. I was so excited about what it was going to do to me I couldn't really relax properly like before. I was getting ridiculously aroused by what was being said in the file and didn't maintain proper concentration. For those of you who haven’t dared listen to the file, EMG forces you to immediately masturbate at the end of the file and drink as much of you cum as you can.

When I came out of trance I was shaking uncontrollably, I found myself doing exactly as he had commanded. when I was about to ejaculate (I don't know why I chose this way to do it, but…) as I was lying on my back, I flipped my legs up and bent my body in a fashion as if I was trying to touch my shoulders with my knees, and so that I could 'aim' straight into my mouth. But no! I wussed out at the last moment :/ I hated myself for letting my inhibitions get in the way again, plus the fact I lost concentration. But I took hope in the knowledge that I had felt more un-inhibited than I had ever felt before (If that makes sense).

A couple of days later I tried it again, same time, same place. That time I tried my hardest to not get too aroused before the file and really try to get into a deep trance beforehand so that I wouldn’t mess up like before. After listening to the file again I assumed the same position as before at the end of the file and succeeded in shooting some cum into my mouth. But not again! I spat it out! I just couldn’t go through with it. This time I didn’t feel hopeful of doing it again some other time. This time I felt pretty disgusted at what I was doing. I deleted the file from my mp3 player and my PC and forgot about it.

Well, tried to at least ;) I wasn’t long before I had downloaded it again, it felt strange, a very strong urge or curiosity to listen to the file again is all I can describe it. I listened to the file again that night and after listening to the file again, not only got a good mouthful, but swallowed it all too! To be honest, it didn’t taste very nice but I was really happy and felt kinda’ weird, but not unpleasant. Afterwards, I could feel there was still cum in my penis but I just wiped it away, I didn’t feel as inclined to drink that after the initial shot. Since then, I listened to the file again and again, at first only every few days. But every day, drinking my own cum, and every day I swear it actually became tastier! This is what the file intends but I never thought it would work as well as it does. Instead of my cum tasting nasty it started to taste sweeter than sugar and as smooth as gossamer.

The same has been happening up until the point at which I write this journal. As it stands, I am listening to the file almost every night. Up until now I had only been drinking my cum after listening to the file, but now I will happily bring myself to orgasm and drink all I can, squeezing my penis until every last drop is in my mouth, with or without the file. This might sound like a complete success, but it’s not (yet). Although I enjoy the taste of my cum and find myself thinking about what it tastes like while I’m at work ( it can sometimes be a bit of a distraction :P ) But I’m NOT addicted. I can go days without having some if need be. And don’t always drink it after orgasm. I will continue listen to the file until I am completely, helplessly addicted and literally can’t get enough of it any more. Watch this space! Please feel free to drop me a message/comment if you have questions, I will gladly answer them.

P.S. Thanks EMG, I’m having lots of fun!