i think i'm just not trusting of myself and how the files will work on me. i do them, i go under, and then i'll always wake up in the middle.

i'm also about half-and-half when it comes to toy useage with the files.

but i had a thought a couple of nights ago; and it's for single kinksters out there; maybe a file that makes one worship their toy/vibrator would be fun. to get more and more aroused whenever we use it, take really good care of it (well i already do now), but only when in the privacy of the bedroom.

outside of the bedroom we're still single kinksters looking for a real relationship; but it at least makes the bedroom play with the toys more fun. (i say vibrator because that's what i have, though i definitely wish i'd gotten one of those MAJOR vibe-dealies).

i've been going through a mini-detox lately. i haven't had a drink all weekend (trust me; this is rare). tonight i went out for dinner with roommates and had a glass of wine. just a glass of wine. i swear, two sips into it (and one bite into my steak) and i was feeling it. phewf! it took me a full hour to finish that glass off and i totally had a buzz going on when we left.

i'm of good French-Canadian stock, i can handle my wine. but for some reason the booze has been hitting me pretty hard. Wednesday night i had a pint and i nursed it for a little over an hour and i was buzzed.

and...that's some random ramblings for you. i'm tired, g'night!