I’ve noticed the more I act like a human and interact with humans, the less effective the file seems. Preventing myself from acting on my canine urges when around other people (which has been a lot lately) has been weakening the effects of the file I think. It seems when I don’t act on canine urges the less likely the urges keep coming.

Last week I’ve wanted to go out into the forest, and on Saturday I finally did. I took a hike, and the longer it was since I encountered another hiker or biker the more canine I felt. When I was alone in the forest for longer periods the more I felt I should be walking on all fours and marking my territory. Lately I was thinking a lot about territory and how I haven’t marked mine. I was even getting stressed about it. But if you noticed, I said “was.” In the forest I didn’t risk walking on all fours or marking my territory, and I haven’t felt like I could comfortably get away with marking the territory around my home. Now in the days since all canine urges and actions have lessened considerably.

I’ve been busy with work and other things, and I have had almost no time to myself at home. I wish the file had been released sooner, I would have a lot more time with it in August or September. Hopefully this setback is temporary, and I know patience is a virtue and things take time, but not being able to act on my canine urges has been frustrating. And now those urges are disappearing.