In my December 14th entry I said that I missed sing my file and being in bondage a lot. Since starting the file again I'm back to cuffing myself nightly and wearing a chastity device. I didn't use the cuffs over Christmas because my mother was staying with us and I missed it. I had some trouble falling asleep because I wasn't bound. I've been getting my wife to cuff me during sex for some time. I've added an extra twist at the end. She has always left me cuffed and gone to sleep. When my shoulders get sore I ask to be let loose and she unlocks my cuffs. At that point I usually want to spoon and she just wants to go back to sleep. I've started handing her the padlock key and fastening myself to the bed with my cuffs and a leather strap. This way I can't reach her. Eventually she lets me go the next day.

With the chastity device, I lock it on myself and leave it on constantly except for nights when we are having sex (Saturday). I realized today that, even though I have access to the key, I can't imagine letting myself loose. It's a side effect of the bondage.