I have been unlucky. Over the past 3 weeks or so, certain things have happened in real life that have rather knocked me. This means I've had to deal with some people who are pushy, arrogant and unlovable... imagine the bank manager from hell, and you'll get the idea. Worse still, it looks as though I am going to have to deal with these people again soon and there are other clouds on the horizon too. With all this hanging over me, I decided that I had to un-SCUM myself.

It wasn't an easy decision. I have recently found a way to continue my training in Female Supremacy without completely losing perspective on life. The SCUM CORE file was designed to take me back to the best days of my intial SCUM training when I was definitely being brainwashed, but I was still in control of how much control I was losing. After some weeks of training I was able to claim some success. I was addicted, committed and happy but I could still pass for "normal" if the situation required.

Unfortunately, the effects of this brainwashing left me quite suggestible, good natured and obedient and for the next 6 months of my life (at least) I'm going to have to be tough with myself and others. And I'll be especially tough on those who made me go through over a week of cravings, mood swings and confusion just so I could reclaim the most unpleasant side of my character. BASTARDS!

On a more positive note... it could be worse. Last time I was un-SCUMed I had shakes in my hands, spasms and all sorts. Well, that's a story for another day, kids. But it's over and I'm ready to fight for survival again. I'll be back for my due when the time is right. But what a week!