when i looked in the mirror this morning i didn't recognize myself... i know it's supposed to be me, but i just didn't actually recognize the guy looking back at me. i couldn't look for long... it was too weird. as for now, at the end of a 12 hour shift, my body feels heavy. it's like it's a lot bigger than it should be. i also feel like it's a bit taller too. i know there's something i'm forgetting, but i'm not sure if i want to remember right now. for now at least, just sitting here it feels like all my body parts are trying to shrink down to what they should be, but it's just causing some grief and pain - mostly in my guts.