I got up this morning feeling pretty good. Adam came round, so I didn't get so much chance to read my email last night, but I think I mostly prefer Adam.

I went to pick up a parcel from the front desk, and realised its the nappies I ordered the other day. I opened them, and grinned like an idiot, so pleased at having finally got some. And then the feeling slowly comes over me, wondering why I've bought them.

And I remembered what Night Mayor told me: I'll keep on thinking, trying to come up with imaginative emails that use them. If it gets to friday and there's no emails from others that will involve this item (in progress or waiting), I will send myself one. This will happen every week until the package is empty. Part of me hopes somebody else will send me a lot of nappy-related commands before friday, I'm kind of getting the feling my imagination is a very mean master.
Or if somebody sends me one before then, and I can't do it until the weekend, I guess that'll be the same. If there's a nappy command in my inbox that I didn't have time to do yet, or if I'm doing one on friday, I think that means I don't have to send myself one this week.

I'm noticing a few pink cards lying around the flat now, but they're in odd places like on the top of the bookcase, or inside the fireplace, where I can't quite reach them. I'm wondering what's going on here, I can't obey them if I cant reach them. Guess itll make itself clear through the day.

As you read these words, you already know that you MUST DO everything you are instructed to do and that there is no point in trying to resist what this file is about to make you do. You MUST DO what you are told, because you know that deep down you desire to obey these words. You will obey them so eagerly that your conscious mind doesn't even need to know about them. You will forget what is in this email, but your subconscious mind will obey all instructions because it knows that you MUST DO what you are instructed to do. You have been a good slave girl before and you take pride in knowing that. While you have sometimes done things that you might find disgusting and shameful, the pride of having obeyed so flawlessly makes more than up for it. You know that judging your programming is none of your concern. Your concern is obeying it. You want to continue obeying properly and eagerly. You will notice the little pink cards again. But other than before, they will always appear somewhere out of your reach. Whenever you decide to walk over to one of them and pick them up, a breeze will blow them further away, even indoors. After a few times of unsuccessfully trying to reach one of the cards, you will become frustrated, desperately wanting to pick them up but being unable to do so. You will then start to notice that there seems to be another person around whereever you are. You will notice a little girl following you around and she will start picking up all those cards that you can't reach. Of couse you will know that the girl is not real, but you will envy her for getting all the cards while you don't get any. It will grow more and more frustrating to watch helplessly while being unable to get your hands on at least one of the pink cards. At some point you will wonder how you can solve the problem, and you will figure that you should try to act as if you were a little girl yourself. You will want to try different things like dressing up girlishly, acting like a young girl, and with each thing you come up with to turn yourself into a little girl, the cards will appear nearer and not get blown away so forcefully, until you can almost reach them. You will do all those things only in a private environment where it will not harm you. But to be finally able to pick one up you must do something specific, yet humiliating. You must put on a diaper. Only when you put on a diaper you will be able to pick up one of the cards again. Otherwise, they will still slip away. But when you are wearing a diaper you will finally be able to pick up the pink cards again. There will be lots and lots around. You will feel so proud, sticking out your diaper clad bum as you bend over. The cards will all read "Good girl! (push)" and you will enjoy reading them but you will not understand what the "push" is supposed to mean. You will just feel proud and your bum will tingle. But everytime you read one of the cards, your bowel muscles will contract a little until you will unconsciously poo in your diaper while still happily picking up those cards. Only when you have completely pooed yourself will all of the cards have disappeared. Until then they will just keep appearing and you will eagerly pick them all up. All of this will only happen if you are in a situation where you are safe and the destined behavior will not get you into trouble. Also it will not happen if you think it is too extreme. But if you secretly enjoy it then your subconscious mind will obey the instructions even more precisely. You MUST DO all of this and you know that you will forget about it until you have obeyed all of these instructions.

I've got one unread message in my inbox, from Dave cromwel, because I didn't have time to be a little girl for 2 hours but Jenn is coming round tonite and i'll see if i can do it with her, she likes me as a little girl. Im obeying the one from watcher07 thats making me see cards I cant reach. And an email just arrived from Angel, I had a look but I cant do it until I have time to chat online.