Last night was kind of hectic. I woke up at about 6, when I should have already been at home, and noticed I'd fallen asleep at work somehow. Jenn ans Jess and Jess's new guy Rob I think were supposed to be coming round for a kind of girl's DVD night. I know there should't be a guy there, but Jess seems like she can't go anywhere on her own now.

I found out now that I wasn't sleeping. Something bad happened, and Angel made me forget it, so I can deal with it rationedly once I've calmed down enough to not panic. So something happened, and then I was sitting at a computer with Jenn, the office empty, talking on the chatroom. And laughing because she was trying to touch type in her odd style, and she cant get used to the two shift keys on my computer doing different things because the left one types cyrilic for doing the BCPC invoices

Anyway, we got home and watched a DVD. Cn't remember the title, it was about some loser student who somehow got into a college that was called Shit and had lots of problems. I wasn't really paying too much attention, Jenn kept moving around and I kept catching a glimpse of her knickers, and just like the times before it was really making me kinda hot. After a while, I started thinking she's doing it on purpose. Like bending at the waist (thanks Jenn, little typos don't hurt everybody)

Then Jess and her guy are all wrapped up around each other on the couch, and Jenn looks at me like what are they thinking, this is supposed to be a girls fun night, a holiday from all the coupley stuff. Then she rips her shirt open and thrusts out her boobs at me, calls out Oh Robert, I want you. I tried to laugh but I was just too horny, I couldn't believ how much I wanted to touch right then.
I don't know what's got into me, well I do its your words, but... Last month if I'd felt that horny I would of started cutting again, I just can't cope. When Holly told me I have to be horny and enjoy it even if I don't I spent a day in the fatal position. But now as long as Jenn'is there she makes me feel safe, she won't judge, and its not so bad. Shes the kind of friend I never was, she sticks around even when I'm feling bad and being rude.

I tried to grab for Jenn's breast, making up the silly little pantomime, and she closed her shirt again. Jess got the point, and they were a little coupley, holding hands and stuff, but not throwing it down the throats of the two single tons. I hardly noticed, though, my heart was racing so much and my clit was thrubbing. I felt sure that if she'd let me see her bra just a few seconds longer I would of cum.

The film ended eventually, I think the loser graduated or something. I should really get that DVD, it looks like a good film if I'd been paying attention, but I on't know what it was called. Jess was almost too quick to leave, dragging her Rob or whatever this one's name is out the door, picking up her bottle of wine on the way out because we'd drunk mine first.

I think Jenn was a little drunk too. She leaned over, got near my ear on the second attempt (while the first nearly planted my face in her cleavage) and whispered she'd let me see her underwear, so its only fair if she can see mine. Its a bit weird, I think she might actually be gay, but she'd been kind enough to help me live my dreams, keep me safe when I was doing scary stuff, so I figured why not. I lifted up my skirt and posed for her a bit. I have to admit, its the first time I'd really felt sexy in a long time. I'd exposed my underwear gods know how many times, but I'd always been a naughty little girl doing what she knows is bad, this is probably the only one I was actually feeling sexy. Somehow with only a good friend to see, all the bad times were gone from my mind.

Then I giggled, and said I had some other underwear that might be more appropriate though. I flounced off into the kitchen, and grabbed one nappy from the few remaining. I didn't know if she was expecting it, but I was a little drunk and a little giggly. I went into the bathroom, pulled on the nappy and fastened it up, and checked how I looked in the mirror. Then, outside to face Jenn. Would she be quietly amused, or mothering, or Dommey, or not in the mood? I didn't know.

She said she thinks I'm wearing it wrong. Well, thats not what I expected. Maybe she wanted to put it on herself, she seemed to enjoy the mum or big sister role like its a normal, innocent game she's playing make-believe like a kid. So maybe she actually liked putting one on me. It was a comforting thought.
I didn't want to give her what she wanted, whatever it is, quite so easily though. So I said I'd got it right, I know how to put a nappy on, and I'm sure it wouldn't leak. I'd even prove it to her, wet it right now and show her that I'd done it right. I'd just been drinking wine, and quite freely, so it was quite a powerful stream running down my legs and pooling on the floor. Then as I felt it, I was so embarrassed to realise I'd made a mistake after all, I'd put the nappy on my head by accident. Jenn wasn't too mean to point it out though, she was understanding and helped me clean up and then she helped me put it on properly. She's so smart, I'm really lucky to have such a good friend.

But I found that I just couldn't enjoy playing baby so much. I needed Jenn to respect me, as well as playing with me, and it seemed like something very embarrassing to be sitting there in a nappy. It seemed a bit unfair, too. She'd seen , and even changed my underwear, but I still couldn't see her's. I dropped the remote, and I asked her to keep passing the doritos and dip, and every time I could see a flash of her panties, but never quite as long as I wanted. I knew that if I wanted to see her knickers, I'd have to do something more creative.

I knew that I had a way to trigger her, but I was so scared of using it. Its horrible to think I might do something to hurt a friend because I dont know what my words will do. But I needed to see her knickers so badly, it was just unbelievable.

I got to leave off here. I'm still trying to write about thursdays events, its sunday now, and I'm feeling plenty of odd stuff now. I haven't pooped since friday night, every time I go to the bathroom I forget to go, and I'm feeling pretty full. But not, it seems, desperate enough to ask my tormentor to let me go. I'll have to wait a bit longer yet. So I'll come back and edit this post once I've got a clear head. This having to wait is just the most wonderful feeling ever, though its got a lot to compete for with my soaked knickers, I just came it felt like 5 times, and it didn't even upset me.

Until next time, Jean and Jenn

Email from Mr Angel

This is your new hypnofile. You will find that as you read it, as well as the effects I describe, it will make the email slave file stronger, until you can find yourself ready to helplessly obey the suggestions at any time of day. Let yourself go deep now, and find yourself unable to resist obeying these commands so helplessly.

You will find that once you've read this email, you will have no conscious idea what it is going to make you do. You will know you've read this email, and you will know how helpless you will be to resist obeying it. You may even find yourself trying to guess, making yourself more and more excited and obedient, as you wait to see what it will do.

Now this suggestion might be quite tame compared to some you have received, and this will make it easier to obey. But as you won't consciously know what you must do, your knowledge that you will have no choice but to obey completely will only make it easier to obey my words, and any other email commands that you're allowed to accept. Every single time you think about this email, anticipating or wondering about what it might make you do, all you will know is how easily you will obey it, and that will increase your obedience even more.

Now, the next time you see an item priced at *2.49, you will know you have to buy it. You might not even relate it to this file, but you will know you have to buy that thing. It might just seem a natural thing for you to buy, or you might find that you are unable to stop yourself putting it in your cart or basket. Either way, buying that thing is something you must do. This won't happen if its something you would buy normally, it will be the next thing you see costing *2.49 that you wouldn't otherwise have bought.

As soon as you've bought that thing, you will know that you obeyed this file so helplessly. You will know that I made you buy that thing, and knowing you couldn't resist will make it that much easier to obey these emails in future. You won't know how you chose that item, though. You'll think I told you to buy that particular item, whatever it is.

You'll know that you have to tell me you've bought it, and how you feel about owning it. But you don't want to let me know immediately, you want to try and guess why I made you buy that thing before you tell me. You might find that if you really try, you can put off writing until the evening. Or you might find your resistance fails sooner, and you have to email me or write in a journal straight away. But when you feel you can't resist any more, it will make the email slave file even stronger, making it impossible to resist anything else I send you in future.

You will find that after you have bought that item, both before and after you tell me about it, you will find yourself trying to guess what I'm going to make you do with it. It may be easy or hard to guess, but you will find yourself desparate to know, and thinking about it any time you don't have other pressing needs to deal with. You'll tell me, in email or in your journal, what you found yourself buying, and you'll want to tell me too any guesses about why I might have made you buy that. And every time you try to guess, you'll find the email slave file getting stronger as if you just listened again, and knowing how obediently you bought it will remind you just how much more obedient you will be to anything I send you in future.

Now, if you can remember any of what is going to happen to you, read this email again and feel the words fading from your conscious memory even as your obedience grows and they sink deeper into your mind. Let yourself take in my suggestion completely, and remember only how helplessly you are going to obey.

From now on, whenever I'm near you, wetting yourself will turn you on. Whenever you wet yourself, you'll feel both embarrassed and excited. As the excitement turns into arousal, you will want to overcome the embarrassment and prove you're a big girl. You will do this by letting the embarrassment turn you into a big girl, a naughty, slutty teenager, who's willing to do whatever it takes to prove she's a grown up who isn't going to go potty again. You need to prove to me you're a grown up, a sexual girl, and doing so will make you want me so much.

Your embarrassment will turn into sluttishness, and your excitement will turn into arousal. You won't be able to resist either of these feelings.

You MUST DO what is written in this file for you have now accepted it as your destiny.

You will not remember consciously what is in this file but you know that it will feel good to act on it and thus you understand that you MUST DO what is written.

You have realized today that jenni has for some reason denied you catching a peek at her undies and you want to look at them so very much. You do not understand entirely why you have such an interest in them, but you will find that looking at them gives you a very naughty kind of pleasure. Whenever you catch even a tiny glimpse you will feel a jolt of pleasure, but at the same time it is embarassing that you get excited by that and so you will blush a little. Not enough to make you wet yourslef but you know that you will wet yourself for sure if she'd manage to show you her undies for long enough because if you just got to look at them for a few more seconds then you would have a very embarassing orgasm and it would cause you to blush and wet yourself at the same time. It will only be possible if you are in a safe place, but you will know that you want this to happen eventually, despite feeling it to be utterly humiliating to have an orgasm from looking at a woman's underwear.

When you are alone with jenni in a safe place, you will realize that she keeps teasing you and you will be confused by it. You will want her to make you do something that you enjoy, but you will not understand why she is trying to impress you like she is. Eventually you will grow impatient with her and you will want to at least catch a longer peek at her undies, if she is showing off anyway, because you know that you will come from looking long enough and it will make you wet yourself. You find the thought of that embarassing, but it is irresistably intrigueing at the same time.

You may want to try asking her to pick up stuff, but however long she lets you see her undies, it will be just a little too short to really bring you to the point where you lose control. You will grow desperate after a while, wanting to have the embarassing, but rewarding orgasm and then you will remember that you have a powerful weapon you can use on jenni.

You will feel guilty for using the secret weapon on her, but you will be so horny that you figure you need to get release and your bladder will start aching for release as well. You will completely forget to put on any kind of protective clothing and just decide to use your secret weapon on heather.

The secret weapon will be saying the trigger words "silken ropes". You will not know what they do, but you will feel like you have no choice but to try and find out so you can finally have a good long look at jenni's undies and have relief.

If she finally maintains a position for long enough where you can see her undies, you will gladly take the opportunity and take a good long look. Once you catch a glimpse you will maybe even come up with the naughtyness to lift up her skirt a little so you can get an even better look. Once you look at her undies for good you will feel an overwhelming wave of pleasure and it will pulse through your whole body. It will feel like you have thetoy in you and it is running on full force. Suddenly when you approach orgasm you will realize that you are about to wet yourself and you will say it loudly. You will then have a wonderfully relieveing orgasm and your wee will start gushing out of you. You will tell jenni that looking at her undies has just made you wet yourself with excitement and it will be so embarassing to admit that. Email from Jeanette

must do this You will realize that you have made naughtyjeanette suffer enough and you will realize that you have to give her the punishment really soon. Although you may have planned to let her wait a little longer, you will come to realize that you have achieved your goal of making her squirm and even beg you for it. You will want to let her have her punishment. It will be just like you had planned and you will want to make sure that it is just what she deserves. You know that she desperately wants it and so you will be able to make her do whatever you have in mind with no feeling of guilt. You are going to punish her but she knows she deserves it and she even begged you for it. You will want to do it as soon as possible, it will feel very important to you.

When you have sent the punishment email you will feel a rush of pleasure knowing that you have done something that had to be done. You will imagine how it feels for her and you know she will like it so you will feel how she enjoys whatever is going to happen.

You will forget about this file, but obey it very urgently. The file itself will just slip your mind, you will not even remember receiving it. What I make you do will feel like it is your own decision.

I have 2 unread emails now, both from Jeanette. One of them is a hypnofile that I obeyed on friday night but I did wrong so I could unread it and try again. It is so incredible.