i am recovering from major heart surgery (5 way bypass). Needless to say i was not prepared for this mentally or emotionally. The surgery was over a month now and it has afforded me the opportunity to assess some things that had developed in my life. i had met a person, someone I actively sought after when I found He lived here in Phoenix. We got together and He agreed to work with me with trancing. During that time I listened to a couple of mp3 files He created which set the scene for me wanting to persue a D/s relationship adding to that a couple of additional files from EMG. He agreed to this. During that time I had written a document that detailed my "limits and goals". This met with His approval. Then the turn in my life. During my convolescence, i realized that what i really wanted was to become a slave. Being an engineer i did what i normally do and researched all aspects of what this would entail including the scripts of several EMG files on slavery. This led me to completely revise my "limits and goals" and decided that i was wanted to become a slave to Him totally withholding nothing from Him. What i discovered in my "limits and goals" was that i was trying to maintian control of the relationship of becoming a slave which would not work if i wanted to enter into a Master/slave relationship. So I completely revised it and emailed Him those revisions. i informed Him of what had occurred and He agreed to become my Master in all aspects of my life. i am truley excited at this prospect. my training will start in about a week. i wish i could make time pass much more quickly now! This will be a dairy of my evolution into slavery. At this time i have aspirations about what i want but that is going to change considerably and i know it will as i will gradually be trained to become His property, thinking only what He wants and doing only what he wants with no will of my own. Why does that thought excite me? It is very erotic to me. At this time i am not divulging His name but He is fairly well known to this venue so i feel very privaledged that He wants to do this with me. i will honor His privacy unless He gives me permission to give out His name. Until my next entry. Who knows He may want to turn me into a complete bimbo in the process so you may have to be patient with how i type things here.