Yesterday evening I suddenly felt incredibly nervous and for some reason I believed I had to use the bathroom badly. I felt like I needed to ask someone what was wrong so I turned to whodoyacallit, who seemed rather bemused. I felt like I was really annoying him and also I had a strange feeling that something was going wrong. I felt like I needed to call Mistress, but I didn't reach her right away so I went out... and did something for seemingly no reason. I didn't understand the half of it but I somehow felt like I had to do something slutty in public and catch someone's attention so I got on a bus und did some obscene moves until I felt someone looking at me. Then, as I had done that, I suddenly felt like I badly needed the bathroom again and I barely made it back home. Rather than using the toilet properly, I went number two in my panties and it was quite a lot. I felt ashamed and confused, but mostly relieved for it had really felt uncomfortable.

Mistress called back later and as I told her my distress (I was ashamed even explaining that to her, I felt so stupid) she tried to find a clue what had happened, but she only had a vague assumption that it may have had to do with a file by watcher and the fact that it didn't go off when it was supposed to earlier yesterday because I was at work and not safe to obey it there. As I was okay then, I just thanked her and felt no need for any further interference with it.


Now this morning I received an emal which I am going to post here and that one ended up in a big time carrot pie situation. It started off relatively harmless, I felt like I was daydreaming about visiting the mall, where I felt my exhibitionism kick in and so I climbed onto a bench and suddenly felt myself dancing erotically and taking off my clothes. It felt incredibly naughty, but also exciting and not too scary bacause I knew it was in my mind.

But things got a little out of hand when the virtual spectators (mostly men) started undressing as well. The first one I felt grabbing me from behind and it was still kinda nice, I looked at him and felt an overwhelming urge to perform oral sex on him. While I did, I felt another man invading my pussy from behind, which was weird as it seemed impossible the way I was kneeling. Then there was even another one trying to penetrate me anally as well and it hurt. I could not really do anything about it, but then I felt the guy I was sucking on pull his cock out of my mouth and he came all over me. This whole porn movie gangbang stuff went on for a while, all the time leaving me more and more uncomfortable. Then suddenly I felt like I was covered in semen, I already hated it and then I grew scared because I saw all those men around me, staring lustfully and I felt like I had taken this too far. I was covered in cum and Suddenly I got really frightened, I felt myself running in my daydream and I felt myself losing control of my bladder, but for real. Then I heared myself scream "carrot pie" and within seconds, it all was gone. The men, the mall, the daydream, the feeling of being covered in sperm. I was sitting in front of my computer, a little sweaty, heart racing, my panties wet with urine. It was exciting the whole time, but whoever wrote that file, please don't let thousands of naked rapists chase me around in a nightmarish setting, for that is fucking scary and I didn't like that part at all. I am sorry about being a turn off, I like being a slut, but I don't like the perspective of being raped. Make me show off, make me get them excited, make me do stuff to them if you like. But please, no more rape scenarios. That is all I ask.



The Email:

Even though you are in front of your computer, you start to imagine yourself in a crowded mall. Every detail is completely vivid and lifelike; the sights, the sounds, the smells.

You start to feel a little naughty, but you are also annoyed that people aren't noticing you. You stand on a bench and begin to do a sensual striptease. As you are dancing, you look up and you see that a few men have stopped to watch you. This makes you happy, and you continue to dance for them.

When you are completely naked, you see that every man in the mall is watching you, as well as some women. You notice that every man has a huge hardon just for you. This makes you so horny that you feel compelled to masturbate for them.

As you're rubbing your pussy, you feel someone behind you grabbing your ass. This only makes you feel hornier and more naughty. You look behind you and realize that he's naked, with the most beautiful cock you've ever seen. You get on your knees and start sucking him off. You are feeling embarrassed that your sucking off a complete stranger in front of a thousand people, but you can't resist.

While you're sucking off your stranger, you feel someone entering your soaking wet pussy. It feels so good that you moan around the cock in your mouth, causing him to cum. You taste his spunk and it is the most delicious thing you've ever had in your mouth. You swallow it down and feel it sliding down your throat. Your oral companion walks away only to be replaced by another cock in your mouth. The cock in your pussy continues to slam into you, making you orgasm over and over again. Soon, he pulls out and cums all over your tits. You feel his semen on your skin. You feel like such a dirty slut and you love it.

You constantly have a cock in your mouth, pussy, and asshole. They cum wherever they want. You feel their spunk all over you and inside of your pussy and ass. Every time one man is finished with you, he is replaced by another, and another. You feel ashamed and humiliated as these men just use you and abuse your body for their own amusement, but you just orgasm over and over again as they fuck you.

Eventually, you realize that the men are done and satisfied. You look down at yourself and realize that you are covered head to toe in semen. You feel it all over your body. You feel gallons of spunk dripping out of your pussy and asshole. You look up to see all the men that you just fucked staring at you and they are all hard and ready again. This excites you, but also make you feel ashamed as you realize that you were just the fucktoy whore of a thousand men. As they all start moving towards you ready to repeat everything again, you get scared and you release your bladder and bowels in a giant puddle of piss, cum, and shit on the floor beneath you.

You're so ashamed, that you run for the exit. You look behind you and realize that the men are chasing you and you begin to run faster towards the exit.

You run through the exit door and instead of being outside, you are in front of your computer again. You realize that you never left and none of it was real, but your pussy and ass feel like they've been fucked for hours.

You still feel the spunk of a thousand men all over you. You look down and see all the semen covering you. You feel it in your hair and on your face and body. It feels completely real to you.

For the next 24 hours, you will see and feel this semen on you. Even after you shower, you will feel it.

You will go about your day as normal. Whenever you notice someone looking at you, you will wonder if they can also see the cum all over you. This will make you feel humiliated as you wonder if they know about what you did.

As dirty and ashamed as you feel, it will also feel good that you were able to please so many men. You will wear the cum proudly and you know that every man that looks at you will want to add their cum to what's on your face and body and that every woman that looks at you wishes that they were you.