Hello everyone,

it has been a while since I last wrote. Lots of things have happened since and I hope you forgive me if I skip over anything important... remembering is not always an easy thing to do.

I had thought that the three girl were gone for good but yesterday I had a shameful encounter with them. It was when I tried frantically to avoid pooing. I know that as a good girl I mustn't do it but at the same time the urge grew and grew. It was a dilemma and I hoped to avoid it by seeking out a public spot where there's no bathroom near. I went out to the store to take my mind off it. Unfortunately I pretty much ran into those three hot ass girls again. And since I had used a nasty trigger on them, they were not nice to me.

I tried to ignore them and act as if I hadn't noticed but to no avail. One of them took a pink card out of her purse and when she did i knew i was about to be seriously fucked with. She dropped it before me and I knew I had to bend over for them so I did. I tried to pick up the card when they suddenly said the same trigger I had used on them ("nice ass!" that is) and it happened. There was no way of stopping it, the pressure inside me was overwhelming and I felt myself pooing. Afte a few seconds I was able to at least stand, and left (they did the same and weird enough they seemed to also have messed themselves). It was such a big load that by the time I was at my appartement I was still filling my panties.

Now that was disgusting enough, some of you will think, but trouble is, later on I pretty much asked someone here to humiliate me even more. Therefore, I am now turning into a public wetter and, to avoid becoming an outcast because of wetting myself all the time, I will have to buy some diapers tomorrow. Because today I was having breakfast at a friends place and I was so nervous about wetting myself that I went to the bathroom every few minutes and barely drank anything. I ended up with a wet patch anyway and as I noticed, spilled my drink (which I had not even touched until then) over it to hide my shame. I kept rewetting it but at least I had an excuse and nobody knew what I was doing. My friend offered me a pair of her pants but I declined as I felt understandably bad about peeing into my friends pants which I borrowed. I am not sure, just something about that feels not right. Vanilla people might have a hard time understanding such an act.

Besides the messy stuff I am having great fun with krystas bot on the #emailslave channel. Also I have met a few people I hadn't played with for a while and we had fun too. One of them kinda forgot to remove one particularly evil trigger (keeping me oblivious of the condition of my underwear) but I took care of that *g*. I hope that I don't scare those away who are not into the messy things. Sure I enjoy them but they are not all I enjoy. I love the poeple I play with and I really welcome your ideas.

Oh yes that reminds me: No files during the last few days... hintedyhinthint *g*