right today im gonna up the doseage so to speak , im gonna try listening to the binural file right now while things are still quite , then later tonight im gonna try putting it on a loop , since it mentions that its loopable to see what happens if i wake up from it ending every half an hour or if ill just be asleep for 2 hours while its plating or what............

right , well i just fineshed listening to the file , same thing happened with passing out only this time the feeling was slightly different in that it had the same core feeling , but there wasnt any tingling like before , i wonder if this is what this 1 other kid i talked with who aperantly is like some child hypno protagy said about there being 2 feelings of relaxation (1 for sleep and 1 for `trance`) and that he trys to feel for the feeling thats for `trancing` , if this is true and on a very loos asumption that this is just what happened to me then the question of which is which comes to my mind , and if i have been `trancing` at some point then............

then for waking back up , i just sorta came to , was wondering how long i was out for cause the file was still playing and i think i felt like `i had just come out of a short nap` (and no before you go `ah-ha see? trance` i somehow didnt get enough sleep in the morning so i was tierd and must have actualy fallen asleep) , so i was still trying to just zone out my thoughts and pass out again for a couple mins when the binurals started to speed up and get higher pitched going back to how the file starts out , and as it was i remember is when i did get some of the tingly feeling like before , so i knew somewhere in my mind this was happening but didnt actualy fully realise it till a couple seconds later and when i did my body had a huge pluse and my heart was beating faster but not as fast as it has before , mind mostly fully awake now obviously but was still trying to maintain things cause i wanted to listen to aquatic ambience while in that w/e state
for some reason hearing the file speed up from being so slow and deep scares the shit out of me way more than the thought of some audio track being able to force my mind to do things...........
(also i like how before i post the text in the box here its `enters` are shown properly but after i post it they just sudenly go away , WHY!?........)

oh and btw , something ive been meening to ask about this claymors broonk biulding binural indunction thingy , there are 3 layers of sound (at least that my conscious mind can detect , it doesnt say there are any `sumbliminals` in it , if there were that would be very bad indeed , but there is that 1 comment on the file that has me incredably worried , what does that person mean by `embeded commands in the discription`??.......) , 1 is a `honeing` kind of sound that goes from left to right , then theres another one thats like.......frick how do you describe sound effects?? idk its kinda like that first sound only a lot shorter/faster and stays in the middle , but then theres another sound that to the best of my knowledge sounds like running water from a large streem , and ive just been wondering is that the sound of water or something else that i just think sounds like water?.........

.......ok , i just listened to the file on a loop , passed out same way as i explained earlyer today , looking back on the time i had slept through the first loop and had woken up half way through the first loop , when i came to i had no idea just how long i was out for but i was gonna try and pass back out again , however that was proving to be a difficult task when i was constantly worrying about when the file was going to end , something odd that happened this time though after i came to , its not exactly clear to me but i seem to have some memory of it so im led to beleave that i had changed my arms positions for an unknow reason , so that instead of them laing on my lap , the elbows were pointing downwards but the next half of my arm came back up and my hands were next to my head , why i did this puzzels me greatly but i notised that while in that position they got back the tingling sensation along with the rest of the feeling that they had to its fullest (my guess is because in that position its hard for blood to flow through them) , then later i notised that i was starting to really feel this stuff in my leg as well , kinda.........
eh but so i continued to listen to it as i was desperatly serching my mind for thoughts that would enduce passing out again , no such luck , then it started to speed back up again only this time i was there for myself and i made sure i took it nice and easy with deep breaths , and i got through it just fine without any pluses of shock or w/e
so then i listend to the file loop , went 10 mins into the second loop before going `ok , im not passed out yet , looks like im done for tonight`
and i must say the feeling of moving my limbs after this time had a much greater feel to it than before

so in conclusion , idk what to conclude , am i `trancing` like a master now and can listen to any file and get effects from their suggestions? or am i simply falling asleep cause i still have no clue wth im doing?.........

like i keep saying some interaction between the hundreds od ppl that are on this site daily would be nice , thats not to much to ask is it?..........


*THE NEXT DAY* was just going to do another listen to that file like usual , but i wasn\'t able to pass out and i sure as hell wasn\'t really getting any of the before described feels from before because i had a bunch of really bad itches all over >_> ........

so i quit and decided to try listening to blinks `indunction` again , and something kinda odd happened this time

see for the first 1/3 of the file i was listening to it and kinda thinking in the back of my head `this isnt working what a suprise` , and then next thing i knew with out warning i had jumped like 10 mins of the file and i was at before 2 in the count down (also i stoped listening im not sure but i might have had another bad itch was why) , i dont know how to explain it other than a posable memory laps , cause theres 1 part at 13 mins where he coughs that i remember listening to , but i dont remember listening to any of the words around and after that point........

and before you jump of the handle and say `ah-ha loos track of time = `trance`` , then why the hell did i come out of it at the point where i should have been in `trance` the deepest?..........

just more bs happening with me to show just how much i truly suck at everything........................