I was alone in the house,and had just prepared some sage tea hairwash to naturally darken my hair. I slipped off my clothes in the bathroom. As I was dropping my pink cotton panties, I noticed a red streak on the gusset. I had neglected to wear an ultralight pad, as my period is not due for another week. "EMG has really gotten to me "I thought. I should explain. I am a budding she-male so I don't actually bleed on the new moon. I do rub my little sphincter with herbal progesterone cream for the week of the new moon, to mimic the female cycle. Last month I used EMG's curse menstruation file for the second time. I got on this site looking for feminisation files. I tried some of EMG's files in the fall, at the same time that the estrogen in my herbal breast development plan was really kicking in. Men's voices were beginning to affect me differently.. as in they could make me soak my panties with pre-cum. Then I heard Evil's dreamy voice and I was just transported. I tried some files like the hormonal cocktail, and also some of the fantasy files. In tribute to Master Mindwarp, I bought one very dark fantasy file and received a vivid memory of a place I had visited once as it had appeared three thousand years earlier in a passage from the Book of Kings. Most of EMG's files were not exactly what I had in mind, as they contained penis shrink commands, and my intent is to become a She-male, not a complete transsexual. Also I was having enough trouble with the estrogen starting to turn me gay. Instead I began using the Allison files for their very upbeat and affirmative style, and the way they captured all the effects of the estrogen that I was feeling. Last month before my regular progesterone week, I tried EMG's Curse menstruation for the second time. I didn't notice any effects that time, in fact I guess I didn't dose myself enough and didn't even have a decent new moon crybaby bout. But EMG's dreamboat voice had come back to me. I had to try more files. I can't remember which one it was, but one felt like an out of body experience. When I did the file last month, I resisted the idea of wearing a pad. It just seemed too silly. Then last week, a poster on a She-male forum sugested wearing pads to aid in developing a womanly walk. I had some ultra light pads left by a former housemate so I gave it a try and it worked, so I started wearing them. Then my friend suggested that for the full effect, I should wear a maxi pad. It seemed natural to reply that I would do that only during my "cycle". So all of a sudden, I'm thinking WTF? I just talked myself into permanently obeying EMG's direction to wear a pad during my cycle. Then today I found that blood smear when I dropped my panties in the bathroom. It turned out that it was only a bit of scarlet thread that had gotten placed there somehow in a manner that made it look remarkably like a bit of fresh spotting. I'm still a bit freaked out about it though. What did the thread come off of? How did it get placed in such a secure region so perfectly? Did I do it in a trance? Did EMG make me do it, like I feel he is making me write this? You are good Mindwarp guy! I hope you read this journal entry and like it, Evil Mindwarp Guy. I imagine you must have a record of the file's I've recently downloaded, even the free ones. You scare me EMGuy, but in a good way, a challenging way... and I love the sound of your voice. I invite you to play with my mind the way you know you can. Hugs and kisses, to EMG, kisses to my tranny and she-male sisters, and greetings to all you other pervs and sluts reading this.