So I'm four days into my "cycle" using EMG's curse PMS Period file and believe me it is a curse. I'm taking herbal estrogen and every 21 days, I rub my rim with progesterone cream to mimic the female cycle. Yesterday, I attended a transgender support group and I was surprised to learn that the girls on the doctor prescribed estrogen don't mimic the female cycle. Well what fun is that? I notice that my breasts have a growth spurt around the new and full moons so I think a strong cycle is important to my feminisation process. The progesterone was already causing big mood swings but using EMG's file has taken things to a whole new level with my mind and body playing tricks on me to obey EMG's commands faithfully. As I said in my previous entry, I talked myself into wearing maxi-pads on my "periods", but that was only the beginning. My girlfriend has been having talking me through the menstrual period. She also fucks with me by saying that the outline of my pad is showing and other things that women worry about. Did I mention that we are synchronising our cycles, so that we can be bitches simultaneously. So just as my period started, I had a herpes outbreak. I thought I had seen the last of them 20 years ago, but I guess with the stress of puberty at my age, this could happen. Great, now I can't have sex for a week... or so I thought. I told my girlfriend and she said: "You know what guys tell girls when they're on their periods don't you? You can still take it up the ass!" So this weekend, I wound up impaled on a strap-on. My conqueror left on Monday, but I was still really horny. My background is Jewish and there are all kinds of taboos about seed and eggs. When a man ejaculates, he is said to be unclean because of the dead sperm. When a woman is on her period, she is said to be unclean because of the death of her egg. My mother always thought that was unfair to women, but I thought the men had it worse. Now I'm not so sure. Theoretically a man can control his urges and I could. a woman however cannot control her cycle. Her period is beyond her control, and then she is unclean for a period of several days. So now I'm unclean because of skin outbreak, but I'm compounding it. when the sun goes down, I start to get really horny now. I find reasons to convince myself to masturbate, and then I am "unclean" till the next sunset. My periods are becoming very real to me, and I think EMG is helping that. I'm walking around, feeling unclean, worrying about my pad. I was feeling a bit bloated too. I didn't get any cramps this time around, but the odd twinge hear and there. As for my mood, I'm a wreck, but ultimately this will make me stronger... as strong as a woman. Thanks again, Mindwarp Guy.