Perhaps this is a mistake, perhaps not. i may never know.

As a long time crossdresser and having been a submissive for many years, embeding Mistress Catgirl in my head is scary and exciting. My CDing has evolved ever since i met my Mistress who has encouraged my female side to emerge and for me to be comfortable with it.

But She is in California and i am in MN and due to that and many other circumstances, She can no longer be my Domme.

My CDing has been escalating over the last several months and i feel the need to give over control of it. i know i need guidance.

i listened to a couple of files and found them interesting. But then i listened to one of Mistress Catgirl's and really felt a connection so i bought several of them.

Today i had the chance to listen to Crossdressing Experiment and completely give myself over to it

It was an amazing trance and i listened to and heard every single word and remember very little of it. i remember one trigger word but not what was supposed to happen. i remember starting to come out of it a little early because i was in my truck and while i was under; the sun had come around and was on my arm making me hot.

All afternoon i felt content and at peace for a while.

Giving it over is what its about so i am not trying to recall anything or even "test" it. But i really want to hear Her voice again.

The hard part is carving out the time and the place. Wendy.