Things are getting interesting (at least, to me). I was heavily triggered into trauma-related patterns about ten days ago, and all the progress I've been making in allowing my submissive side to come forward just stopped. I reverted to a fear-based aggressive behaviour that, well, as they say, served me for years and doesn't serve me now. It wasn't until I could go somewhere by myself for a few days, and really weep it out that I could find my own, submissive center again. While the patterns were triggered, I didnt' listen to the training files at all - I couldn't bear it - and now, I'm happily listening a few hours a day again. So, what interests me is how fear (real fear, deeply embedded fear from childhood) actually cancels out both the training files and what I feel is my true nature. I had thought that fear was part of submissiveness, but instead, it's trust and confidence that is the foundation for surrendering like that. There you go. Hugs!