Yes, slut is being asked that a lot. slut will try to explain.

In previous journal entries, slut has mentioned the crap pile that is her life, the bad thing that happened one Monday morning and having to go to court. Those are all basically the same situation. What slut has never mentioned in here is that it also has to do with a very precious family member. slut will not say anything more about that, she just wants her readers to understand that she is serious and not just a flake.

slut got hooked on the SLUT file just before life went to crap. She loved the effects and wanted to make them stronger and permanent. Now, slut has been having a very difficult time balancing the two sides of herself. The "slut" side got out of control and started getting slut into serious trouble. The "vanilla" side of her life was in danger of collapsing around slut's ears.

slut very much wanted to be a good slut. She loved the thought of being helplessly unable to say no, of being used for pleasure, of being a good toy for anyone who wanted to play with her. slut did not want to give that up. slut's "vanilla" life was far more important, though. That, slut would never give up.

So, slut has found a compromise that does seem to be working. There is a man who found slut through these journals. slut has mentioned him before. He has been hypnotizing slut and playing with her and slut trusts him. He has placed a temporary block on slut, while still allowing her to be brainwashed/programmed by the file. So, "vanilla" slut has been happily OD'ing, BIG time, on the file while remaining in control. She has been feeling no effects from the file at all. Not even pink is affecting slut. At the same time, slut knows that the programming is working on the "slut" side, that she is becoming the best, most wonderful slut that she can be.

What slut is hoping for, ultimately, is that the "slut" side can be on a trigger, so that slut can safely function in her "vanilla" life, while still being a helplessly horny fuck toy when it's safe to be.

So...question for slut's readers....if this trigger is workable (and slut believes it is) would you still want to use slut?