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Jock Summer: Day 16

by Aelfreich

Let it never be said that all people are bastards. One of my readers, after noting the short length of my last post and the fatalistic tone of my ending joke, feared the worst for my intellect, and counseled me to take precautions against loosing my future to my fetish. To the person who sent that: You're a wonderful person, let no one ever tell you otherwise.
Suffice it to say, my short post last night was due toa multitude of other factors, not least of which was the fact that, frankly, I was playing Doodle God(CURSE YOU SIMPLE BUT FUN GAMES!).
ANYWAY. Somebody else asked for a clarification of what I mean by "The Third Option".
Basically, it boils down to this: when I started this little experiment, I viewed the situation as The Two Options.
Option One was staying as I was/am, which is to say a highly intelligent, unmuscled weakling Geek. The pros here were that I quite liked being me, actually.
Option Two was succumbing to the Jock files, becoming fully a big, muscular and above all dumb jock. The pros here were, one, that I found the entire concept, including and especially the dumbing down, to be extremely erotic.
The Third Option was what I used to refer to my original plan: I would use the files, including the dumbing down aspect. But I would think of and develop The Jock persona as a kind of mask: I could put it on and take it off as I needed or wanted.

The original Third Option plan...didn't turn out so well. It's proved near impossible to get The Jock to stay 'off'. As I've noted, he quickly took up residence below the belt and above the knees.
In response, and at the advise of a reader, I've modified the Third Option. Rather than keeping the Jock forever as this 'other' persona, I'm going to try and slowly integrate him into my life. If the threat of being dumb when I don't need to be comes up, there IS a failsafe. The muscle-building lifestyle is EXPENSIVE. A Geek paycheck can afford it. A jock's...not so much.
So let's here it, ladies and gentlemen, for the Sin of Greed! Our Hero! :P

Incidentally, I've also been asked if it would be possible to compose one of these journals while I'm The Jock. And the answer is:
I haven't got a clue. I suppose I could try. Tell you all what. Next week, from the 8th through the 12th, I'll be out of town, headed for the A-Kon anime convention in Dallas. So, one night before I head out, I'll listen to all my files before posting, and you'll get to read how I write when I'm NOT Mr. Cleverdick.

Now, I've gotta get in bed. I've got an interview for a job in the morning. Wish me luck!


Comments

- xavious

Aelfreich can I ask a strange question? Are you upset with our general attitude towards your journals? I ask because I've noticed that you seem to be happy that people have given advice and being friendly about your 'third option' or about your well-being in general. I wonder if you hoped that you'd have more comments begging you NOT to go to far down the path to jockdom and to retain as much of your intelligence as possible? Forgive me, it's just when you began this I got the impression that you were sort of wanting the jock transformation and would have some self control if you felt it was going to far. I'm getting more of the impression that much of our encouragement upsets you? Do you see our/my love for your transformation and potential loss of intelligence and personality to be an insult? Does it upset you? This may seem like a strange thing to come out with, but your attitude over the last couple of entries has made me wonder.

- Aelfreich

@xavious: You misunderstand. I enjoy the encouragement, yes, but I enjoy it because it's encouraging. I get just as much enjoyment from those waxing poetic about how sexy me becoming a big dumb jock is as I do from those who want the Geek to win. Frankly, I'm enough of a peacock that just saying nice things about me in either context is likely to make me feel all warm and fuzzy.

- TeenWolf

hate to say i feel the same as xa here. seems you want the jock to win and dominate your geek self yet you wanf the geek in you to still have some domination. as ive found out the fun/hard way last year, there is no sliver of your old self that survivef.

- rugbyjockca

Aelfrich, I think it CAN be done to live a jock life without giving up on your geek self. I strongly suggest joining a sports team at some point....there are lots of types of jocks to model yourself after, and I'm sure you've noticed that everyday life involves a lot of little "masks" that we wear: you act differently with your friends than you do your parents than you do your boss at work. It takes some tweaking, a lot of dedication, and maybe some luck, but I'm sure it can be done.

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