Let me start by saying that I am a 25 year old gay man who is looking to make drastic changes to his persona. I have considered this for a long time now and have decided that I want to transform myself to the best of my ability into a dumb jock.

I have always been a bit of a nerd and have found myself to be pretty miserable through most of my life because of it. I truly believe that ignorance is bliss and would like to shift my attention away from such things as computers, science fiction, games and comics to a simpler lifestyle of working out, watching sports, drinking beer and sex. I have never been that interested in sports before in my life, despite attempts to force myself to be so. (Even more so as of late, as I have recently taken a job as a server in a sports bar while attending school)

I am not completely inexperienced in the gym as I have recently lost 120 pounds, starting at 320 and now down to 200. However, after all that time of dieting and constantly forcing myself to workout , I found that I have grown lethargic and sedate once more as I hit the 200 pound mark. I have been hovering between 190 to 200 for several months now, but have not been able to bring myself to actually get back into the swing of things and continue to try and improve my body. Ultimately, I aim to increase my muscle mass significantly and reduce my remaining body fat as much as possible, but seem to lack the drive and will power to get off my flabby ass and do something about it.

That being said, as of today, I am going to begin using several different files at bedtime in order to transform myself into the dumb musclebound jock I truly want to be. I have already listened to Jock Takeover by Luggy last night and this afternoon, in an attempt to get things started. (For those unfamiliar with the file, there is a heavy emphasis on the dumbing down aspect.) I'm not sure if it is an after effect of the trance or the fact that I am subconsciously playing along, but when I finished, I already felt as though my mind was in a bit of a fog and have a strong desire to go to the gym and lift some weight. Unfortunately, I will have to hold off on that until tomorrow as I have a pile of homework to complete. (That should be fun if my IQ is already dropping.) Even looking back at what I have written so far, I can see that for some reason, I am having difficulty getting my sentences and ideas to flow. (Never been a problem for me before)

I will admit that there is a part of me that is terrified about letting go of my intelligence... but a voice in the back of my head continues to scream at me that it's necessary in order to achieve the happy go lucky, blissfully ignorant life that I so desire. Am I worried about flunking out of college? Yes and no. Looking at some of my "dumb jock" classmates, I figure I should at least be able to pass my classes with C's rather than the A's I am accustomed to, but not flunk out. I do have a desire to open my own bar someday and it is still my goal to finish college. Something tells me though, if I become the Jock I want to be... it may end up being a sports bar instead of the Nerd themed bar I was originally intending.

I will post updates as I discover progress. Wish me luck! I can only hope that it won't be long before I am a dumb, sports loving jock. -James

P.S. After proof reading this, I was shocked at the amount of mistakes that I had to go back and correct. Is it wrong that this really excites me?