I have been getting lots and lots of suggestions as of late of her, it seems to be alot more frequent as I listen to the file more and more. Like I have gotten suggestions in a form of a childs voice like "Paint your nails" "Make your nails pretty". I never ever have painted my nails before but I deicded to just go around with it. Then I got suggestions like, "you should make your face pretty aswell" and "Dress in pretty clothes". Now I am a part time CD as it is but I have never did my nails ever before nor have I did my make up either, but the voice sounded so inviting in a sense I decided to go along with it. I decided to take a couple of pictures of me and saved them to my computer, as I was looking through them I noticed there are some pictures with me in them doing things I don't remember doing. Things I never do in my pictures that I did in these, I highly suspect "Letty" took control for a seconds time or something I do not know. But when I look at my other pics and look at those, I seem like totally different person. I can feel it, I can see it in my eyes in that isn't me. I mean sure thats my body but that isn't "ME". I never got the urge to go out in public dressed, but I kept hearing things like "Go play" "Lets go" And my friend so happened to call and asked if I wanted to go out and I said ok, I will go dressed. I have never ever went out dressed before, why now? My friend took me to a LGBT club/bar and it was interesting to say the least. Some guy asked for a ciggerate and I wanted walk away, but I herd something say "I want to watch this", in a sad tone. So I stayed, the person who was asking for my cig, I gave it to him. He then kissed my hand and hugged me, while he was hugging me he was sniffing me aswell" I had a girly smell on. He invited me to his after party, but the voice said "no, not now". So we stoped talking and went our ways, I have never ever talked to a guy in person while dressed. Thats not the only suggestions the voice made, I remember hearing a girls voice saying "lets dance", I didn't want to dance. I don't know how to dance a plus going on that hugely populated stage floor no way! But she presissted, instead of hearing her now annoying voice, I decided what the heck and I did what I could. Shockingly no one judged me and I still had some fun it was a interesting first time experience. Also some woman while I was dancing grabbed my private area, she was rubbing on it and then she actually gripped it with a firm hand! "I herd my voice laughing, all I can do is really laugh aswell at that point since that has never happend before.""good thing I tuccked well, atleast I hoped I did"". We took photos, went out to eat and I didn't get home till 4am in the morning. Interestingly enough, I think I can hear her more loudly and clearer when I am drinking. Because I drinked alot that night to get rid of my nervousness since that was my first time out. I was zoning out, never been drunk before accept for that night. But at that moment that is when she got stronger etc Woke up the next morning and my friend sent me pictures of the following night via online. I decided to look through them. But instantly as I was looking through some of them, I noticed the same stupid hand pose I did earlier is what I did at the club, and I don't remember doing that. And like before, it doesn't look nor feel like me in that club photo, it feels like someone else. Its me but its not me, its hard to explain. Its actually creepy to be honest, if she can take control without me even noticing how will I know when she ever? It makes me wonder if I should get that erase file. But for what its worth I don't feel like doing that, I mean she helped me get out in girl mode for the first time in my life, she helped me danced on the dance floor and sort of talked to a guy. And even though I didn't want to do any of that, I have to admit I did have a good time. So I guess I I owe her some credit don't I? I will let her off the hook for now. But to be quite clear no matter how strong Letty gets, I do not plan for her to take control of me. I want her to stay in the back seat and just give me suggestions I am fine with that personally. Going to listen to the file again tonight, I have been having a urge to listen to it all day. Letty turns 11 tomorrow so I expect things to be the same. Oh and I talked to this one user on this site called senna or something, apparently the user helped this one guy accept her "girl" or whatever you want to call it. Apparently the user really helped that person out. But the way I feel right now is, I am not apart of her and she isn't the main. Its the other way around and thats how I want it to stay. >.> to be honest with you, I refuse to embrace her as the real me, if anything I am the real me! And I can get rid of her with the snap of my finger! "well with the erase file lol". My CD name is Leeiah so some people just call me Lee, and that is who I was, to become Letty would mean she is more realer then me and I can not have that.~Lee Will keep you updated on my experience. Sorry for the long read.