i have been wearing diapers full time now 18 month at first it was hard to let go and use them the files helped me with my mind set not sure i ever went under but i can repeat like every work form the files.At first i did cheat a few time. it was not until i gave all my panties away and really lived what my feelings that it came to me. first it was just a feeling the need to go and i would knowingly let it go tell my self its is right to do i'm a baby and babies wet their diaper. now i cant even tell until i feel it leak out or i notices i'm wet. today was a big mile stone for me i started messing my diaper most of 5 months ago but i had to think and try to do it. i want it to be natural like my pee so back to the files.this morning i got up with my normal wet diaper and went to the kitchen for my bottle. walking back it happen total uncontrollable bowel movement. yes i knew it happen but it was not like i was trying or any thing as i walked it came out of my bottom. my first one. i am so happy. i guess all i have done to make my like better was worth it my beautiful nursery, changing what i eat and only bottles and tippy cups, down to my every day dress. yes i do get some looks most think i'm "slow" but i'm the top in sales at my job. and my boss don't care as long as his number are good. for you wantabe baby you need to live it breath it, and want it. as my old dada told me its was easier to learn not to wet and mess with everyone telling you that was bad. then to to take years and undo it. thanks to all for the help. it time i guess to change out of this mess wet happy diapers. proud baby girl