I was having some slight difficulties with getting on the internet, but everything is worked out.

I've got my loop running like a well-oiled machine at this point. I spent some time with it on yesterday and was basically subservient and cock-craving for most of yesterday night & this morning.

The sensation is really weird now (though still enjoyable)....I'm in total control for the most part, and I'm remembering what I'm doing, it's just that my thoughts and actions feel like they are going through some kind of "bimbo screening process" before they come out.

I think.....I like where I've got myself situated for the moment, because I have the most minimal amount of control available to me while slutting myself around so that I don't go overboard like I had been previously.

Otherwise, it's um......a blast I guess that just the slightest touch now makes my pussy start going crazy & my legs & hips start shaking violently with pleasure (can't do it when others are home - the screaming I make at that point is too loud to keep quiet). :B

I've not been noticing too many negative side-effects, though I've found my coordination has gone weird sometimes, and my IQ is certainly down, even now when I'm not totally tranced out. The one big one I ~have~ noticed is that to get everything working as well as it is now, all of my experimenting has left me HIGHLY suggestible......EMG's voice puts me out like a light at this point, and my will & sense of self is GONE the second the player fires up.

It's interesting, because while I absolutely agree that a large part of the effectiveness of all my files & stuff is matter of whether or not I ~want~ it to affect me, the fact is that I've used other psychological tricks and have been listening (gawd, for months now) for just ~that~ long of a time, that my mind stays silent while the loops are running, rather than acting skeptical or arguing as the suggestions present themselves.

I still am both scared and curious.....if someone knew what they were doing, I've been at this long enough that I jump at the thought of cock instead of fighting anything......I can function nicely on a daily basis, but it seems I'm getting distracted more & more as of late.....I'm ~absolutely~ noticing that the way I react to stuff ~now~ is how I've been trained to rather than how I used to on my own.